Happy New Year everyone! Hello 2007!

I'm starting off this post with a survey, and here you go:

1.Where were you 3 hours ago?
- getting ready to come home

2.Who are you in love with?
- Oh, God knows!

3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
-YUCK! no..! Not weird to that extend.

4. Is there anything pink within 10metres?
-yep! My curtains!

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
-hmmm...a week ago..?

6. When was the last time you saw the person u love?
-God knows it too.

8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
-I'm going to register for my driving lessons this coming Tuesday.

9. Last movie you watched in the theatre?
-Devil Wears Prada. lol.

10. Are you hot?
-You tell me![in the tagboard!]

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
-my sister's leftover Justea.

12. What are you wearing right now?
-SuperCamp T-shirt, really short shorts[to sleep], and ofcourse my undies.

13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash you?
-I'd like to own a BMW Mini one day.

14. Last food that you ate?
-Wan tan mee.

15. Where were you last week at this time?
-Just landed from Surabaya, heading to town.

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
-Yea, one top today.

17. When is the last time you ran?
-Somewhere during last week.

18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
-Doha Asian Games

19. What is your favorite animal?
-anything that ain't a reptile. Well, dogs are usually the friendliest.

20. Your dream vacation?
-AUSSIE! =)

21. Last person's house you were in?
-my kakak.

22. Have you been in love?.
-Sure.

23. Do you miss anyone right now?
-hmm... most probably. Oh, God knows it too.

24. Last time you drove a car?
-FOR THE LAST TIME, I DONT HAVE A CAR.

25.What are your plans for tonight?
-It's already in the AM. So tonight means new year's eve night; out with my parents.

26. What is the next trip you are going to?
-Maybe Krabi?

27. Ever go camping?
-yeap.

28. Were you a honor roll student in school?
-Can I laugh? At myself though.

30. What do you want to know about the future?
-If I'd ever go to Australia? And what would I be? [..would I be rich? would I be pretty..? Here's what she said to me...]

31. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
-not now. But I won't step outta the house without any.

32. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
-nahh...

33. Where are/is your best friend(s)?
-Home I suppose. They're goodie girls and boys.

37. Whats your favorite song?
-At the moment, it's The Four Tops's Can't Help Myself, Busted's Without You, and Daft Punk's Digital Love.

38.What are you listening to right now?
-Daft Punk - Digital Love

39. Do you collect anything?
-used to collect stickers and stamps. Now I collect postcards[slowed down though] and I collect dust too. OH, not to forget, clothes! =P

43. What does your last text message say?
-'why?'

44. Do you like hot sauce?
-Hot? How hot? What flavour? =S

45. Last time you took a shower?
-10pm

47. What is your favorite qoute?
-'anything,up to you', 'ewww?!', and 'coming...!'[this is only when mummy calls me when I'm still putting on my make up. lol]

48. What is your heritage?
-The pineapple head, the wide feet, the height.

49. Are you someone's best friend?
-I suppose! =)

50. Are you rich?
-If I get any poorer, I'd have to sleep on the streets. =P

And now, I'm gonna share my resolutions[which I will make right now!]
1. Be more serious in my studies for the next 2 years, but not a nerd.
2. Shower the dogs every Saturday.
3. Lose some kilos, maybe till 57kg.
4. Find, and keep that special someone within my heart and soul[or as long as I can].
5. .....

4 resolutions are gonna be hard enough to keep up with! =) Anyways, again I wish all readers HAPPY NEW YEAR and may it be a good year ahead for you.

Special message:

Jinn: You've been great all year round, always catching my fall. I'm sorry for all the times we argued like stupid cats and dogs. Okay, maybe it's only me that's the stupid one. You were there for me, especially when my grandma passed, sorry[again] that I was lost for words when you had to go through it just before Christmas. But then leh... this year you weren't as nice as year 2004 lor, 'cause Emelia caught your eyes when you lost them, then you layan her, always 'BRB' and never come back because you're on the phone with her.. Geees, but since you've been quite nice[=P] and Mlia's my primary school friend, I give you a bit face la okay! All the best throughout your years to come! And I don't think I would be starting climbing too soon. Love ya, Jinn! *hugs*

Melissa and Jo: Although you guys don't read my blog, although we didn't have much to talk about for this year, and although we're all going separate ways next year, I do hope we keep in touch and remain as 'ursula, ariel and flounder', that's if you guys remember. Day by day, the times we had when we were 14 keeps coming back and I miss those times. All the best to Mel in Taylor's, all the best to Jo in Aussie[damn you, I wanna be there!] !!! Love ya both! xoxo

MelkyWinky: Thank you for always listening to my love stories. I hope you have enjoyed every episode throughout this year. According to many sources(like astrologies), year 2007's love stories from me would be much more sparky! ;) I hope you do well in your college, hopefully you'll find one that would be in a catsuit waiting for you in your room when you get home from work, after being tired. And when you switch the lights on, there she is, lying on the side of your bed, with a whip in the hand. AHAHAHAHA!!! You will find her one day okay! I'm sure, Mel Win, the next time I see you, you'd be much taller, as you're still 16 now! Don't worry too much even if you aren't taller though. =P Take care, I'll see you when I see you. But as long as both our internet connections are fine, I shall tell you love stories when I can. Love ya Melky Winky! *hugs*

Zenne: We also don't have much to talk about, but I guess you know that you can always count on me. And I guess I can count on you too? LOL! I miss the laughing-in-the-library sessions where the guy behind you had trouble with his nose and NOSE-GOO. May you have more patience with the barriers you come forward to, may you be a stronger person in the mind, may you have better friends than some of those treat you like trash, and most of all, may you live a better life with happiness, wealth and joy this coming year! Take care, and always remember that I'm here fer ya! Love ya!!! *hugs*

Ken Neth: You and your 'no ejaculation = longer erection' statement. LOL! Can't believe I'm stating it here? Too bad, by the time you read this, everyone else would already have. And the conclusion about you [from what I hear my friends tell me] is 'Nice, good looking, but blur, very blur and too good for you'. Good as in goody-boy good. MY conclusion about you is 'Your flower doesn't like you! It likes pretty girls like me! I think it's a male and not gay.' Hahaha! Whatever la...! I still sayang you okay?! And thanks for making me dance during prom. It would have been nicer if you didn't run back to your seat after that. All the best in Perth okay blur boy?[another Aussie migration] Be optimistic, like you always say? =D Love ya, kor! Muacks!

Melanie: By next year, you better have grown up a little more okay! Stop whining, I wont be in school for you to pull my sleeves and show me your pout because your friends ditch you. You gotta learn to deal with it, and bout those brothers, just love them! I'm sure they love you too. When things dont go right, dont scold them, just talk and tell, and be firm with what you want. Don't say "wei...! my.. bla bla bla...ar.!.. mummy...bla bla bla..". If you decide to tell your mum; just do it right away without making things worse. And Miss Melanie, stop falling for the wrong guys! Yea I know you can't help it, I was just making fun of you. Well, I hope the coming year is good for you with better friends and teachers, nicer brothers[not as if you'll change brothers with someone but I hope they change for you.], and I shall also hope you stop falling sick so often! Take care, girl! Love ya! *hugs*

Tofu: Firstly, I'm sorry I'm not going to mention your name here. Maybe not just yet. 'Cause I'm liking the name 'Tofu' on you. And then, here we go. I've not known you for a very long time. But you're the only person I'd take an ugly photo of myself and send it to you, and after that delete the picture from my pc. Through my 'destressing' days, you've helped a lot by making me laugh everyday. But you make me unable to sleep too after laughing so much. Well, even if I laugh, I still like the yawning, the scratching, the rubbing of the nose, the dropped-jaw, the flopping lungs, the weirdness and so-called retardism, and of course the 'SILLY NOODLES'. I may seem a lil corny a lil too soon, but I gotta thank you a lot! Because I've not been laughing much for the last few months, as much as I have been lately. My eczema is in the midst of curing! Though I just scratched. ahaha! Well, may your lungs never pop and flop again, may you always stare into the screen and let me snap *doink* photos of you. I hope you have a good year ahead! All the best in your uni! *muaxxx!*

Ben: Benjamin Ch'ng Jin Seong! You know I love you, I know you love me, we both know you've never been taller than me ever since we were 5 years old, so Happy New Year and all the best in college! LOL! Love you long time, Ben! *muaaaaaaaaxxxxx~~!!!* *hugs* Take care!

And I'm sorry to those who I might have missed out, if you think you want me to post a special message about us then tell me. And tell me about it. =P Well again, happy new year everyone! Btw, if any of you noticed, I've got two Ben/s in my links, I hope they don't confuse. =) Yea, I've got two Ben/s in my life right now.

Ahh,I'm hitting the sack! My dad's complaining bout my eye-bags. You should see his! =P Goodnight all!

Christmas and New Year, I'm still here.

The whole of yesterday, I was busy trying to sign into MSN, busy playing with the internet connection so that it'll admire me more and frustrate me less[yea right], and most of all, busy trying to look for a perfect song and load it into my blog! I finally found it, thanks for the info from Rina in Jinn's blog. =) The quality ain't too good, but it's okay. Ofcourse, if I could have Busted's Without You in my blog, I'd be the happiest girl, for a day. =P

Anyways, I forgot to talk about my Christmas! LOL! What Christmas? The earlier part of the 25th Dec was nothing big, just over-feeding myself. Yea, nothing big, nothing but my tummy. And then in the evening I went over to Melissa's house! How sad the guy I use to admire from Mel's balcony, that stays across her house wasn't around. Owh how I miss those times where he comes to his balcony topless, though he had no muscles. Okay, drop it, I'm gonna start laughing at myself too much too soon.

Well, I was sent straight up to her room. Umm, things weren't like it used to be. But Jo and Mel were still as crazy. We had a 'tell ghost stories' session where someone's laughter outside the door, and Mel's mum knocking on the door had scared all of us[8 people] including the two guys. Liang Zhi and Jo's stories were the worst. And when I say worst I mean freakiest AND TRUE! Okay,I don't wanna get there. Just like most parties these days, there'd always be a lil camwhoring session.

And so, here are some pictures and as always, the remaining ones you can find in my multiply when I put up a link. [Yea, you only get the link maybe in 6months time. =)]

'Best Friends Forever'

We love MELISSA!

Well, that's so much for today. I've got a full day waiting for me moza. ;) From 10am - 7pm I'll be in Bangsar with my mummy, maybe hitting Cat Whiskers when the salon's not busy. Then dinner at with family, and some drinking party with my sister's friends[when I barely drink]...[owh well, maybe I'd decide to get myself drunk then, or not! No way, in front of my mum; drunk?! Wrong timing!]

New year's eve, I'll be going to mum's friend's house in the day 'cause it's Hari Raya Haji. Then in the night for the countdown, I'll be going with mummy to another friend's house for barbeque. If ANYONE has a better plan for me, tell me!!! I really don't wanna go! Well of course I'd rather fly to Aussie! =D

Okay, goodnight! Happy New Year everyone! May you obey every resolution you make. I might come up with a list resolutions, if I post anything tomorrow [or anytime before the 1st of January 2007].

All the best to the National Service candidates by the way.

I can't breathe without you

I messed up my previous template by accident, and I never saved an extra copy for times like this. And so like tsu zenne said, hurricane happened in here. But now it's fine. =) Infact this is better.

I came back from Surabaya, Indonesia on the 23rd. Left on the 19th. It was a good experience staying there. It would be a bigger culture shock for those who had it in Pantai Emas. I wore my slippers almost all the time there, even in the house. There weren't any tiles or proper flooring in the house. All earth. Both the shower bathroom and the one where you let your bowels go, are about 15 steps away, and out of the house. Atleast these ones' doors don't have holes that spots your bum. The poopee toilet's ground meassurement is about 2.5 feet by 2.5 feet, and not even 6 feet in height.

The kitchen is also not under the same roof as the house. So in other words, 'house' is where you watch tv, change your clothes and sleep. During the day, you spend your time chit-chatting or simply gossiping outside the house, sitting on a brick or a rock. If you're not doing any of those, you're in the fields working your ass off.

Over there, I had many first times. It was my first time cycling on a road where lorries drive past me at god-knows-what speed, and they're less than 2 feet beside me. Imagine keeping the steer straight. And then I had my first time as a pillion rider on a motorcycle, without a helmet. At first the speed was around 40km/h, on the way back from the beach, the speed went up to 80km/h, and remember, NO HELMET and the GIANT LORRIES! At the beach, it was my first time touching a jellyfish, though I saw one last year but didnt touch it. This one was smaller. OWH, the both of them were dead by the way! Yea, and so I picked this one up, washed its legs/fillers/whatevers and carried it in my hand while I walk about with my feet in the water. Took many nice pictures. And then I took it back to my sister and showed it to her. She touched it. After that,I threw it away. And right after, my hand started to itch! Another first time! It was the jellyfish's poison! And so my nuckles were red and burning pain.

From the house, to cycle out to the market, it's about 2.5km. Along the way out of the junction to the main road, as I cycle with the breeze in my face, I spotted lotsa frogs dead, flat, with their whatever inside of them oozed out and dried, like a large prune, only with legs! [haha, tofu, I bet you're so sad about this!] I think I managed to spot about... 10? They're really so disgusting!

Camwhoring with a cow. MOO!

At the beach.

Tukang Gigi?! Well, nice denture! =S

Specially for Tofu. Enlarge the picture! =)

On the last day, my kakak, her parents and her baby Dina. I miss being there. =(

I don't have much to say about my trip for now. I'm tired and annoyed with the internet connection. Well, I have a nice tan but no line. I have the pictures with me, but I'll post the rest up in multiply. So, in my next post, I'll probably have links to 2 larges albums in my multiply.

I've finally got my own Olympus camera back, so more news pictures of myself would be up in multiply too. I think. If I'm not too lazy, and if the internet permits me. And if you remember what snoopy in my previous layout said, I think it's true. I am. =) Nah, I don't have to say what or who or when, I'd rather keep it to myself at the moment. Suspense? Haha! Good for you. =D Work those brains!

Btw, to those who haven't heard, I'm starting college in Taylor's on the 8th of January, under Hotel Management! Haha, who knows, you're prolly reading the blog of a future hotel concierge, restaurant owner or maybe just a dishwasher very far behind the reception area. Whatever it is, I'm gonna take every challenge. And to those who've been making me happy recently, I thank you a lot. Keep making me laugh, I hate to scratch. =.="

Alright, I told Tofu I'm gonna go sleep as soon as I'm done with this, but this seems never ending. And so I shall end it here. Tofu is a white boy by the way. Okay, white man. He's turning 21 in 15 days. And no, Tofu isn't the same person as Oxcyde. Totally different. I hope I get to talk to you [later]with good connection. OKAY, I got this never-ending-syndrome from Tofu, and I shall scold myself here, and bid you farewell... I hope you all prefer this layout. Yea you will, it's much easier to read. LOL.

..................OKAY, GOODNIGHT! BYE!!! =S

Never so confused before.

Prom was pretty, good looking, hot, sexy, glamourous, handsome, and whatever whatever. It was great fun. But all good things come to an end.

Firstly, I thank my mummy. Thanks for perming my hair[thanks to Donnie who did my hair that night], and my make-up. Not to forget zipping up my gown for me.

And then thanks to my mummy and daddy, for allowing me to go for prom, buying me my gown, paying for my ticket, and worrying if my dear driver drives carefully. I came home safe and sound, so it proves he's a good driver,right?

Umm no, he doesn't drive too sanely. But with me around and playing with his *cacat* flower stuck to the air-cond vent, and bad traffic jam, that's how I got home safe.

Thanks to my friends who've been listening to my rantings about prom and my issues. You know who you are. Thank you all for helping me get myself back to who I should be. It all 'came worth while.

This person I have to thank absolutely a lot! Firstly for offering to accompany me. And then for paying so much just to accompany me. And then buying me flowers =) , serving me fried rice when the evil waiter forgot about me, taking me out to dance, driving me to prom and back, bringing me pass Bintang Walk and made me true colours show with my 'yayyy!!', noticing my curly hair only after about...3 hours?, and being my photographer. Here's something a number of you don't know. Well, throughout my many days[and months] before prom since he had offered to be my date, he's made me mad more than a thousand times. I doubt he knows, maybe he does, but doesn't wanna make a big issue on it. Guys being guys. But I from how sweet he was last night, I guess it was all worth it. And I find that he cares =) , but he doesn't need to show it. And I must thank him also for his college advises. And that brings down to a conclusion, which says he sayang me a lot, so much that he does insane things for me! Insane like, offering to show me stunts with his driving, but I declined 'cause I'm kiasi. =] Owh, I also sayang him,even if he went to Kimarie cause there was a cute girl there and after that he even told me his hair looks funny but he wants long hair for christmas, and even if he prefers Serena C's hair to mine.


You take care of that flower in the car, make sure it spins okay. Just don't face it to yourself, cause it goes crazy only when it faces a girl with patience and intelligence. I'll do my part and take care of my sweet scented roses. =)


Anyways, thank you Ken Neth for making prom something I'll remember till I grow old. No you donkey readers, nothing happened between us! I'm just thanking him for bringing me to prom and all. Ken Neth is a totally sweeeeeeeeeet guy! Girls, he's up for grabs! But you gotta go through me to get him though. =D Not just anyone can have him.

*more prom pictures another time; when streamyx is not having pms as to what Ken Neth said. I'll most probably leave a link in my next post and it'll link you to my multiply*

Back to the same old frustrated me.. I don't know why, Christmas movies still are my favourite but I hate the kissing part. Absolutely! And everytime any kissing part comes, I tell myself I'm never gonna kiss a guy[and doesnt mean I'll kiss a girl anyway]. I guess I've come to the phase where if a guy comes up to me, I'm turning him down. Because none of them are able to understand what I'm going through. And I'm tired of explaining how this feels. It just sucks to feel this way. When you're confused with what you're feeling. When you don't know what you want. When you wish this and that happened. When you wish you didn't do this or that. When you ask yourself why did you even do so. When the only question in your head is 'why?!?!?!'. And then all you feel like doing is bang your head on the wall and eat chocolates.

When you turn on a radio, you get a high probability it's a love song. Whether it's upbeat or slow and emo, it's about love. What the hell is this mann?! Ne-yo's song So Sick, he says he's so sick of love songs, they're so sad and slow... but heck, he's singing a love song there! Play another love song, and I'm gonna think so far! I NEED to bang my head on the wall.

Okay, don't tell me that things will turn out fine, don't tell me not to worry, don't tell me maybe this maybe that. Just try to understand my situation!

Lastly, someone take me out during Christmas? Or bring me for countdown on new year's eve? I promise I'll be a good girl. I could buy you a meal [more than a Happy Meal, less than ala carte/buffet in JW Marriott] and you take me out? Yeah,that's what I am right now; desperate! Owh, but who cares, the offer is for real!

I went ice-skating with my cousin today. It was her first time and so she wasn't very easy with the skates... And then she clashed into a guy and I wanted to help her. Since I was ahead of her, I had to make a small u-turn. When I turned around being on her left, the guy was in my way helping my cousin but struggling too. Then I had to move to her right or I'll bang into the two of them. Okay, everything was fine.

Then a few rounds later, she clashed into a girl and I wanted to help. But when I got nearer, my cousin's leg tripped me! So I fell with them. As I was falling, 2 guys came around to help. This CUTE Chinese guy came and bent low down and wanted to help the 2 girls.. not me. Then the CUTE Chinese guy's Malay friend also helped my cousin. My cousin had bruised her elbow. The guys were holding her arms, helping her SO WELL, the CUTE guy asked my cousin if she wants to go outside and sit. She shaked her head 'no'. Then the Malay guy asked her if she was okay. That girl...! She shaked her head 'no' again!!! Then I couldn't stand it and Held her up. She was weak though, couldn't stand well and the guys were so concerned! I was worried, few rounds only and you're gonna stop skating?!

Thinking back at the moment I fell and think I saw someone approach my cousin, I looked up and saw his face and stoned for about seconds. Reality hit me back, 'Stupid girl! Your cousin fell la! Get her up!'. And so the rest of our ice-skating included this cute guy. I was trying to allow my cousin to have her eyes on him all she wants, cause he's too short for me. But I simply couldn't!!!

Screw him, that bugger went for my cousin, not me! I fell too okay!

Later on my cousin and I went to play in the arcade. We hit the air-hockey table. She scored them all. Donkey! Then we played some stupid shooting game. I thought I was losing, but I won her, and lost to the game though. Then we went car racing. So embarassing that I didn't know how to drive and I banged into so many cars on the opposite direction. Silly, no? Racing cars but the opposite traffic still moving! Too bad, but I still got through the first extended time! My cousin did too, but she didn't race with me. Her machine had some problem so after I started, she kicked the machine hard and it started well. =)[yea, that's my cousin.]

Well, we're hitting the themepark tomorrow! So I'm off to sleep now. Have a nice day peeps! By the way, I so can't wait to rock prom! LOL! I'm not gonna rock prom but I'm gonna enjoy it! =D

See ya all!







I can't stop smilling for some reasons though.
Bye..!

Shyt!

This morning, I dreamt I was getting ready for another wedding. Don't know who's though. I had my cousin in my house this time. But my house didn't seem like my house. Well anyways, I dropped by at Ben's house before the wedding, to pick up my pooch. Funny thing is that it doesn't look like any of my dogs! And it's a puppy! Ben didn't greet me. Aunty Connie came to the door and fetched my pooch, and told me it was in Ben's room.

This is getting freaky.

Anyways, I need to hangout! I want to watch 'Cinta' ! I must stop watching Christmas movies or I'm going to be sober this whole month! I can't wait for prom! I can't wait to take of on the plane with my sister! I can't wait for Christmas! Oh, God knows why, cause I don't even celebrate Christmas! I can't wait for new year's countdown! Again, God knows why, cause I'm never out of the house during countdowns since I was young. I long for cuddling on the sofa and watching Christmas movies!!! argh!!!

Hate this feeling mann. It feels so weird!

holy moly!!!

I'm like here.. and.. there! I wasn't planning to blog, I'm just being lazy.

But I can't resist showing you readers this!
I just found out I'm in SuperCamp's website! I joined that grrreat camp in 2001! And now, my face is in there!!!

Click this site and click on Youth Forum Album[dont ask me why I was in the Youth Forum, wasn't supposed to be.], then when the page pops-up, go to page 7. After you've laughed at my metal teeth look, satisfied, then close the window and click on Senior Forum Album. Page 1, and 4. The rest, I'm just so happy to relive the pictures/moments again..! Owh, Jinn, you can spot Sue Lynn[not your sister la..] at page 5!

Besides the SuperCamp website, you can also spot my face at this website! Well, do the same and support this campaign. Yea, I know I look like I need something for those dark rings round my eyes. Stop laughing, send in your picture for me to laugh. Or else, just... WEAR RED!

Haha! Well, SPM's over, I'm really glad! Anyways, here's something EU JINN and EMELIA must read. On the morning of my last day of SPM, something happened when I was sleeping! No la, lizzard didn't climb on my face la..! I dreamt that I was going to your's and Emelia's... WEDDING! But I didn't see what any of you wore. I just know I was walking to the venue with Zenne, and I saw Xue Rou and Eric walking hand in hand, Chu Chian if I'm not mistaken, dont know if Bradley was there.. owh, Wei Wen there too. I was very unsure about what I was wearing[as far as I remembered, I was dressed very country =S].

Before anything started, I dashed into the washroom and started worrying bout how I looked. Scary part is, one side of the toilet wall was a see-through glass and kids in Mc Donald's were doing monkey faces at me! I spent a long time in there though, and was also peeping outside cause I heard music going on already. When I peeped outside, I saw Abigail I think. The girls were all in dressy cocktail dresses, hair all groomed. Jinn, there was a band at your wedding too! Band like a marching band! =.="

Soon enough I woke up to confusion. What day is today? What year is this? Jinn's getting married at...what age??? Oh, last day of SPM! OH, still got papers to answer!!! What a dream....... Wake up..!

I'm sure the wedding went well. Yeah. Uh, all the best. LOL!

Goodnight! I mean, morning..!

p/s: You want curly, I give you curly!!! =) Figure it out!

Pick and mix stories.

[2/12/06]
Yesterday:
1. Moral paper was answered with crap.
2. Got my face burnt in the sun. It wasnt bad because it was hot, but because I wouldn't get a nice tanline . And no bikini.
3. Some bastard was a total bastard, though I thought he had changed.
4. Missed the bus home.
5. First taxi I stepped into shaked his head and said he cannot take me to ss5, because he's not passing there. Then why stop there, stupid?! After I got outta the taxi, he drove off. Bastard.
6. Taxi ride home costed me rm 3.50, whereas the bus ride would only be rm1, and you can use the same ticket on the same day for feeder rides.
7. My maid was being the same ol' nut she always was.

Today:
1. Hesitated to follow my mum or not.
2. Decided to go.
3. Got a pedicure done.
4. And manicure.
5. Had some crazy electrician in the salon, well SHE thinks she's an electrician. She almost killed my mum's clients. Even herself.
6. She's only a shampoo girl okay.
7. Had dinner at 10pm. Was the last customer in Manhattan Fish Market.
8. Food was good.
9. Had a can of carbonated drink after so many months.
10. The gas killed my tummy.
11. I am sleepy.

Okay, now.. I'm gonna talk about taxi drivers!

How could that bastard say he doesn't wanna fetch me?! It's not like his grandfather is paying for my taxi fare?? My mum told me, her customer told her, "The next time you get in the taxi, tell the person where you want to go. If he says 'cannot' just sit in the taxi and be dumb.", and then my mum said to me, "By that time, he would've scolded me like hell and given me one tight slap la?!"

Pretty true, Malaysian taxi drivers can be the worst! They drive like they own the roads. They honk on you; you gotta move! When you honk on them; you get a stare, and maybe for some really rare ones, you probably get a finger. Malaysian taxi drivers have a high probability to be a rapist. Parents worry when daughters have to take a taxi anywhere, and daughters have to wear very very decently when so. Some of the taxi drivers have some kanna in the mouth that they cannot open their mouth to answer you. You tell them anything they keept shut. You tell them to keep left, they keep shut; you dont know if they heard you. [After a short while, you see them signaling left. *phew!*] Aside from that, some taxi drivers talk way.. too much! They ask all sorts of nosy questions. Well ofcourse, I'd rather they're nosy than rude and scary. But still, who likes to tell personal things to just some taxi driver?

Anyways...... enough with the taxi drivers. You know, for some reason I have been typing "taxie" the whole time while typing this post today. I'm annoyed, so I'm ending it.

Neways, here's a nice song I'd like to share with you readers! Enjoy!

Love

Tomorrow is a Sunday and a day closer to the last day of SPM. No more blues of chasing the bus and having friends laugh at your ass cause you missed the bus and they have a car or a friend that has a car. You just don't have a heart. And I'm putting my foot down, when I say I'm not going to talk to you for the rest of my life, I SHALL NOT talk to you for the rest of my life!

State of eczema: worse as the day comes. F*ck you a*s-es who make me mad.

Dope - Unwritten

I am the happiest girl tonight!!! Pine nuts, salad, and one great email! More to come! I need to jump now! It's the adrenaline! See ya all!

J.Lo, Oxcyde, Uracca.

Yes, a new background. It's not some dirty photo okay. It's just sexiness. Yes. And I find her bum bum very J.Lo...

Anyways, I'm not crazy over Oxcyde kay. His songs are great, he's a nice guy, he's my friend, and nothing more. Well atleast it is this way for now. *turns away and smile* He's performing in Noise Bar, The Railway Hotel this Thursday. Aussie readers go catch the gig. It's $5 per entry. Why on earth am I even saying this here; I don't think I have Aussie readers!

'Cause I support Oxcyde/Assentrix/Level Headed!!! And I would go and watch if my sister wasn't coming back tomorrow night! [and also if SPM was already over la..=p]

Yay, our national cyclist is going to transit in KLIA tomorrow night, landing 8.30pm! And taking of to Doha, Qatar the next morning! Malaysia are you proud of all our national athletes? Well atleast I'm proud of my sister! For your information, how many bloody times I've told her to check out my blog and she never does. cipek. Ahahahaha! Please pray for her success!

I'm going off now. And I can't wait for tomorrow night. Especially because I'm gonna wear my new shoes! It's so eff-ing pretty!!! Okay okay, I'll stop it now.

One nice picture for all of ya. I love photoshop and paint. =)



Goodnight all! xoxo!

Yet another survey. Easiest way to update.

What's your favorite scary movie?: Scary movie! =)
What's your favorite movie: My Best Friend's Wedding, Drive Me Crazy, The Notebook
Who is your favorite actor:Owen Wilson [he's so not gay okay!]
Who is your favorite actress:Julia Roberts
Where were you born: Taman Megah
Where do you live now: Petaling Jaya
Who is your best friend: You know who you are.
Are you in a relationship: nope
If so are you in Love: =)no
Do you plan on marrying them: even if I were, that's something to talk about later on.
Do you play video games:nope
If so what kind:-
Whats your favorite kind of clothes: vintage and casual
What's your favorite band: I know my one and only favourite rap singer is Oxcyde.
Who is your favorite film Director:uhhh... no specific. Okay, maybe Bradley! =)
Are you a virgin: yes
Do you consider yourself good looking: good enough for me not to complain but be thankful.
Do you consider yourself weird: sometimes. But I like it.
Who is your favorite painter:every 3 year old kid who paints.
whats your favorite comic book: Archie?
what is your favorite video game:none.
If you could have any super power what would it be: to be invisible
If you could be one super hero who would you be: Donald Duck!!!
What type of music do you like:whatever that sounds good.
Aim or yahoo: msn. =)
Turkey or ham: turkey ham!
What is your favorite food:italian! and salad!!
Taco bell or McDonalds: no Taco Bell in m'sia so McD's it is..
Favorite memory: every sweet one.
Shower or bath: shower.
Where do you work:no where yet.
What is your favorite cartoon: Disney
Who do you wanna kill more of clowns or democrats: why clowns?! Democrats!
Beer or wine: Wine
Do you play any sports: used to.
whats your favorite song: reminisce the start
Wats your dream car: the mini cooper.
coke or rootbeer: rootbeer
Werewolves or Vampires: vampires are sexier...
Who knows you more than anyone:me myself.
Whats your favorite color: green, white, red. [italy]
What color are your eyes: dark brown
If you could have one wish what would it be: score me a high credit for History!
Have any piercings: 2
Are you getting any:1 on my belly button
Do you have any tattoos: no
Are you getting any:never
Whats your favorite holiday: I'd love to go somewhere by the beach, stay in a chalet, listen to the waves in the night.. hmm...
Do you have any kids:aiyor, not even married la.
Are you lazy: hehe, yes
Shy or out in the open:with new people shy. And if I know you well enough, I'm one of the craziests,
who is the one person you would do anything for:my family.

Uhm, readers, if you've got any question to ask me, to know more about me, leave a message on the tagboard. I'll get back to you if your question is relevant. I love answering surveys, and questions like these! Feel free! =D See yas!

Kick up the sundance shoes!

Q : What is your status?
A : single, flirting and looking. ;)

Q : What were you doing 5 minutes ago?
A : trying on my new top. It's pretty. =)

Q : What are your fave sports?
A : [hahaha.. asking this pig here?]If running is a sport then running. Swimming's good too. Some time of 'play water' includes. hee!

Q : Do you cry most of the time you have problems?
A : if it's servere then yes. [haha, then you donkeys would say that all my problems are servere... =.=]

Q : Did you have a fight with sum1 today?
A : no. But a small boy got me mad today! I was digging into clothes searching for pretty tops and stuff. This indian lil boy came around next to his mother. She was sorta next to me about 3 feet away. Actually, it should be 'I though he was coming around next to his mother' ... anyways, he didnt. He came towards me, and TOUCHED MY RIGHT THIGH!!! I had a short denim skirt on you see. God knows what made him do that. I felt disgusted. He touched my thigh and sniggered and backed off to his mother and SMILE AT ME. Gee, it's funny yet not very too.

Q : What are your fave subjects?
A: english. economics.

Q : Who cheers you up the most in your life?
A : my family. then comes my friends.[not all though.. =)]

Q : Do u like to chat?
A : yea, but not with everyone. I'm fussy with friends sometimes. Sorry.

Q : Last chat?
A : Patrick.

Q : Do you like to laugh?
A : If I say 'no' and you say 'oh.. okay..', you gotta know me better.


Q : Last text message from? What's about?
A : my kakak from indon. Message contents:private

Q : Last food?
A : hard boiled egg

Q : Do you have an exam?
A : YES!!

Q : Do you think people who like to study are alot like nerds?
A : nope. If they like to study a lot, but when they cross the road they take 10 minutes, when they play football they are shy to take off their shirts, whether it's time for exams or not they don't give a damn about you but their books are like gold. That's a nerd. hmm, gold from my nostrils la..

Q : What's your opinion about long distance relationship?
A : difficult. Needs a lotta trust. Therefore you gotta know him/her for a long time first.

Q : About love at the first sight?
A : don't know. Some works, some doesnt.

Q : Did you ever love sumone but he/she didnt like you?
A : yea, there were ten thousands of them.

Q : Did you ever dump sumone?
A : yea, not in regrets though.

Q : Have you ever taken a relationship with sumone you didn't love?
A : I must've...

Q : Have you ever hurt sumone who you love so much?
A: yes, but I dunno how much he loved me lor...

Q : Do you like your school?
A : so so la..

Q : Do you have a new bestfriend?
A : How new would 'new' be? Dont know, maybe.

Q : Do you have sumthing you must do right now?
A : SLEEP! Well, right now I gotta STRIP[haha] and change into my pyjamas. Then get my sleep. =)


God knows why I keep posting surveys in my blog as a post. Shyt, this is so pathetic. Neways, goodnight. I love today a lot. My dress is so pretty! and so are my Clarks! Bye!

xoxo

videos just for the sake of it.

3 times, I have wanted to post another survey from Friendster, but as I type my post, I surf the net. And due to what a nutcase my comp and IE is, it shut my IE windows by itself and everything I typed is gone. How @$%&%-ing...

Too bad, I'm not posting that survey anymore... Instead, I'm gonna share with you some nice videos.

This is Ming Hee dancing in Cameron Highlands, at our training 'camp'.
I don't think you'd 'want him that way'...


This are 3 athletes from my school,also during training camp. Hakuna Matata all the way from SMK Taman SEA.


Here's something I'd talk about. I don't understand some people who join reality contest shows. They know they just cannot sing well,they insist they can. They sing like they're so confident. When judges reject them they say the judges are blind or stupid and this and that. Get a mirror. Here's something I recorded from tv with my cam. So, excuse the colours and background noises/voices.

This guy sings "Bad Boy" Chinatown style. No offense dude, but did you really think that your singing is good? Did you really think you deserved the 1 million dollar? Enjoy!



I have people pestering me to have my dinner now and it's very very irritating to get that even after you've said "coming..!!!". So, BYE! =.="

Get to know me. =)

To know a little more information about me, here's some. Done with the help of 2 surveys.

From Melanie's blog...

10 years ago i was:
-7 years old
-skinny
-much shorter
-very eager to touch ground in europe for the first time
-still a kuci rat, small skinny and quite.

5 years ago i was:
-12years old
-in the year where I took UPSR
-much fatter than when I was 7.
-not a kuci rat anymore.
-quite a tai ka jie

5 most recent songs i listened to:
-Oxcyde - Therapeutic
-Oxcyde - Reminisce the Start
-Oxcyde - Cool as ice
-Sarah McLachlan - When She Loved Me
-MCR - Black Parade

5 songs i know all the words too:
-Negaraku
-Duli Yang Maha Mulia
-twinkle twinkle little star
-Charlene - I've never been to me
-fug, I can't think okay!

5 places i want to run to:
-bed, I need the sleep, hehe, yet i'm here.
-Aussie!
-Krabi?
-Paris
-YOUR BEDROOM! ngehehehe....=) ...sleepy la..

5 things i really want:
- pass my spm with swimming colours...
-a new cellphone
-scholarship
- nicer skin
- a higher nose bridge. my god, I'm pathetic.

5 things i should be doing now:
-studying science
-studying science
-studying science
-or atleast sleep
-and sleep longer..

5 biggest joys in my life:
-when I was born..cos I was given a chance to live.
-when I found out that THEY were my parents
-when I found out I have an elder sister.. but at first it was really horrifying.
-when I got 5As for upsr and daddy bought me schnauzy
-I'm happy with the love I get from my family.. I should be...

From Kah Yang's blog...

Layer ONE : On the Outside
Name : Leow Hoay Lin @ Avril
Birth Date : 1st April 1989
Current Status : Single and looking.
Eye color : brown
Hair Color: dark brown
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac Sign : Aries

Layer TWO : On the inside
Your Heritage: Chinois
Your Fears : Insects like roaches and bugs, reptiles like the stupid geckos in my room!
Your Weakness : sweet talk, and food
Your Perfect Pizza : Not a big fan of pizzas

Layer THREE : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : That was so fast!
Your Bedtime : 12am, sometimes 4 am?
Your most missed memory : Form2, memories made with my grandma, Pickle and my kakak.

Layer FOUR : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : neither
McDonald's or Burger King: both
Single or group dates: single dates
Adidas or Nike: any
Lipton tea or Nestea: lipton
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate ice-cream, vanilla scent.
Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

Layer FIVE : Do you
Smoke : Never will
Curse : yea, though I don't like to.
Take a shower : No, I dont. I enjoy the odour I have on myself, especially from my armpits. Why take a shower for? You'll get dirty again anyway. FER GAWD'S SAKE, OFCOURSE I DO!
Have a crush : I'd say not.
Think you've been in love : Yea, think only.. and found I was wrong.
Go to school : soon 'not anymore'.
Want to get married : Someday.
Believe in yourself : Not always. I never make right choices and always say the wrong things.
Think you're a health freak : Hope to be. But looking at my growing size, I'm definately not.

Layer SIX : In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: no
Gone to the mall: NO
Been on stage: no
Eaten sushi: no
Dyed your hair: no (aiyor, I seem REALLY pathetic now..)

Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: nahh...
Changed who you were to fit in: I guess so. I didnt choose to change, it's like I naturally did.

Layer EIGHT
Age you're hoping to be married : before 30

Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy.
Best eye colour: any
Best hair colour: any
Short or long hair: any. But it applies with the person he is too.

Layer TEN: What Were You Doing.
1 minute ago: typing this
1 hour ago: in the shower.
4.5 hours ago: taking my exam, cracking my brain.
1 month ago: trying my very best to study
1 year ago: came back from cameron highlands training, earlier than the others. I was.. lazing at home.

Layer ELEVEN : Finish The Sentence
I love: my family
I feel: sleepy
I hate: exams
I hide: my feelings to a certain extend
I miss: my grandma, my dog and kakak.
I need: to go out and celebrate, but that's about to come in about 2 weeks time. Patience is a virtue!

Layer TWELVE : Tag 5 people
whoever who reads this. haha!

Therapeutic.

I would be the craziest student to be blogging at this time of my life. It's modern maths paper tomorrow. I'm just here to express how glad I am that Sejarah is done and done. I might not do as well as other students, especially ones in the Science stream, but I did my best so far. I'm proud of myself even though I do not know my results yet. History has been the toughest subject for me ever since I was introduced to it. I have never scored well in it. I have never done well in it. When you do not do well in something, it makes you not want to do it even more. For some people it might be the other way round, but for me, that's just how it goes. What I'm saying is that I have never really studied Sejarah for any exam, not really even for SPM. If you do not study anything at all, it's gonna be really difficult to do your exam. I did last minute studying. I know I regret because I could have done better. But now that it is the past, I decide to be happy that I have atleast finished an essay question with confidence and not reffering like I do when I practise. This exam period has caused me a long-term itch and it is easily agitated by stress, anger, frustration, or simply hurt by words. Yesterday, after my BM paper, I told my dad my fingers hurt from writting. He said because I never do enough work. Thanks. My fingers were feeling a slight pain when I touched the tip of it, because I have small handwritting and I was adjusting to the position of holding the pen higher so that my handwritting would not be so difficult for the invidgilator to read, so that he/she would not be turned off by my handwritting and give me a cute chicken egg which could similarly look like this --->0 . Today someone told me something that got me right in the face. And I felt like the stupidest person living today. I was talking about how happy I am with what I did for my History paper, but 'someone' told me that 'someone' didn't know doing history needs reffering. Thank you is all I can say, because you're smart and I am stupid because I have to refer when I do history. Friend, I hope your prom date would not be affected with eczema during prom in her pretty dress with her not-so-pretty self scratching like an asshole. I hope.

Mod. maths tomorrow morning. Gotta run.

Listening to: Oxcyde - Therapeutic

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia

That's just what SPM stands for, we all know. For those of you who've not started sitting for any papers, I have. I took the accounts paper. It was tough shyt.

No, the paper wasn't THAT tough, but the situation and the aura you feel in the class/hall is so tensed and tight! I woke up that morning, had a cup of coffee, with my accounts notes. As I sat by the dining table, I felt like throwing up. I finished my coffee. Then I took my notes upstairs. I left them on my bed, then I went to take a nice shower. I felt much better. Infact I was confident. I was dancing in my room. I was only wearing my chamisole and my sarung, LOL, and enjoying every moment. Then I went downstairs and made my own lunch. As I was eating my sandwich, I got that sick feeling again. I quickly finished my sandwich[I know it would have made me worse] and drank some water. I went to wash my face, sat on the couch and read up some more notes.

At about 12.30pm, I left the house, waited for my little but big bus to come. I was also feeling that tinge of nervous in me. When I reached school, my body felt weak.

When the paper started, I couldn't believe it's real. After the paper, I felt worse. I told my friends jokingly that I'm gonna jump down a river that night. And they asked why. Wasn't it obvious? Well, that means they felt fine. So, prolly I'm not doing too well for accounts eh? It rained. And some nice friend allowed himself into a friends car, and watch me walk in the rain. By the way, my friend sorta lives around my block. Thanks friend. -.-"

I'm not ready for the next papers. Not at all. So, goodnight. I hope everyone enjoyed the previous post of mine. It was a great hit! =) See ya all! Good luck SPM candidates! I know, I'm late, no one's gonna come online and read this. Ciao!

If you just wanna make my life miserable, go to Hell and wait.

I HAVE DIRTY BASTARDS COMING TO MY BLOG WITH FUCKING DIRTY MINDS THINKING THAT THIS PHOTO I POSTED ON MY SHOULDER WITH A SCAR FROM MY PET MONKEY, IS AN UPCLOSED SHOT OF MY BREAST. IF ANY FOOLS HAVE READ THE WRITTEN, IT'S PROVEN IT'S MY SHOULDER(in blog post dated 23rd October). AND BESIDES, YOU FUCKING STUPID BLIND BASTARDS OR BITCHES, I HOPE YOU DONT HAVE A COLLAR BONE SLANTING DOWN TOWARDS YOUR TITS!

If that was one side of my breast, you telling me I'm nipless? I take it as an insult. First off, how did I find out that there are sickos reading my blog and thinking my shoulder is my breast?
My ex-boyfriend[ashamingly], Jordan Lo Jo Zheng, IM me on MSN like this..
J:hey
A:hie..
J:*nudge*
A:???
A:yes??
J:wats up with ur blog?
J:showing off you breast izit?
A:my blog?
A:uhm.. are you at the right page?
J:yup.
J:i think so..
A:but I've changed my layout(i started to think that it could be the hyper photo, but..)
A:and I've never showed any breasts
J:recently?
J:70% than
(omg, he can't even differentiate 'than' and 'then')
A:not even 70percent
A:I wear clothes for all my pictures
J:wit da scar on it?
A:??adoi... my post issit??
A:where got breast?!
A:CRAZY!
A:my shoulder got la?!
J:do u noe everyone been talking abt it...
A:WHO?!
J:nvm lar..u better close it..than becoming a bitch than
J:i mean ppl calling
A:WHO TALK ABT IT?
J:many one....
A:NAME!!!!
J:u lo lei sui one...
A:HUH?
J:izit a love bite that u r showing?
A:if you'd just read the post?! and not stare at something you think isnt it?
A:and gave(error of anger:can) you for god's sakes give me names of who thought so?
J:ppl send it to me... just to look at da pic....
J:u think i so free mehh.....
A:WHO SEND?!
J:jus advising u..
J:i also 4get d... few larr...
A:WHO FUGGIN SENT YOU THE PICTURE?!
A:DON'T FUGGIN LIE OKAY!?
J:u really think i so free arr....
A:THEN JUST TELL ME!
A:cos I think you're pretty silly to be one of them to think that way too!
J:i also think da whatever picture u showing is mainoly for attention lorr....
A:you don't think i have a bone so obvious right above my breast?!
J:so....just telling u lorr..if u dun think so thn 4get it lorr
A:OWH, IF THAT'S WHAT YOU THINK, SORRY, YOU'RE JUST SO DUMB TO THINK SO!
J:alright..everyone dumb than
A:everyone? well, no one has ever said anything about it..
A:and besides, in my blog, it says my shoulder!
J:alright alright...
J:haha...
J:anything larr..
A:I DONT FIND IT FUNNY OKAY!
A:ANYTHING DOESNT DO IT FOR ME
A:you dont judge something without reading okay
A:tell your stupid friends who sent you the photo to go to hell!
J:is not funny is not funny......
(it's getting very very ashaming that my ex boyfriend types like this, my gosh..!)
J:dun worry dun worry....
J:i worry ur mum see it only
A:YOU'RE A FUCKING BASTARD AND GO TO HELL, MY MUM SAW MY SHOULDER YOU BLOODY BASTARD!
A:YES, DONT EVEN THINK OF REPLYING!
A:I DONT WANNA TALK TO YOU
A:YOU'RE SICK AND BLIND!
J:oh..alright then...yu so angry for if u think is a right thing to do?i am just telling mann...i shall keep qiett than
J:haha....
J:okok
J:u win u win
A:THE FACT IS,YOU HAVE STUPID FRIENDS THINKING THAT IT'S MY BREAST!
A:SO STUPID!
J:hmm....
J:alright....
A:FUCK OFF YOU BASTARD!

and right now, he's not in my MSN list, deleted and blocked! So, dear ex-boyfriend, happy?

See, thanks for that mann, it was my first time telling someone to fuck off and mean it right in the face. And then(or is it 'thAn'?), fellow faithful readers, if you noticed, I had asked him if he was on the right page and he said he thinks so. But I'm sure if he was at my blog, he'd know how I got the scar or which part of me was that picture taken. Maybe he's just plain stupid. I don't know. I'm sorry I had to tell everyone here how shallow you could be. Maybe you're innocent and didn't send my picture around, but if you were a nice ex-boyfriend or friend, even, you could've told me nicely, and not accuse me even after I denied. You could atleast figure out how come I have a bone so obvious right above my thought-as-breast. If you think it was 70% of my breast, I am nipless? Wow, bastard, you're hitting the toll! God made everyone including you with those tits, dumbfuck!

I'm not only bringing this stupid ex-boyfriend of mine down, every sohai who thought it was one side of mine or any girls' breast..... mann, you damn sohai. And my dear readers, those who saved that picture and sent it around, please, BURN IN HELL. You must be too blind to read that it was a shoulder, or you're just desperate for breasts! What a darn pity.

Jordan Jordan the toothbrush, you think my mum thinks it's my breast like you? C'mon, my mum is smarter than that! Again, I take it as an insult! Next, I've never really seen a love bite, but OH MY GOD, you really think that is how a love bite is meant to be? Holy, come to think of it, my monkey Betty loves me, she gave me a love bite!

I'm thinking that Jordan is against me, because if he was a friend, he wouldn't have rubbed the issue in too. If he was being nice to advice me, he would have told me who it was who sent it to him. I'm sure none of you can fall for his fact that he forgot(except those who sent the picture of my shoulder around)? He was just saving his friends. It's not that I have to win or lose, there isn't any win or lose! It's just how shallow these people are! And then I'm also thinking if it could be the horrible fake-zeNNe who did this sending photos of my shoulder around? I'm starting to get more clues on who fake-zeNNe is.. but I'll just have to keep it to myself.

Ever wondered why I broke up with Jordan? He once had his whole palm on my right breast while he was standing and I was sitting. I know, I don't have nice, full-bloomed breasts, and so what's there to touch? Well, ask him! Whether it was by accident or not, it seemed too fake to me. Secondly, he has a horrible habit. If we're walking next to each other around the corridors of the classes, and he sees a friend of his, he pretends to block me from his friend like gesturing "no, this is my girl, you stay away from her" jokingly. When he blocks me, he'd put his hand up in front of my chest level, and it could get really close. I never understood why you did such for. Another thing is, he cannot respect a girl and understand that he shall not kick her ass. Especially even after she says so. Lastly, I'm sorry Jordan, I should've known you longer than 2 days before becoming your girlfriend at that time. I should've known your character, your behaviour, your thinking, your vocabs.

Other than that, he was nice. WAS! I swore I cried when I broke up with him.
But it was all a mistake. Thank God it was 2004 and right now, I'm 17.

Stronger and smarter.

Thanks for reading, I know it's quite a dread reading such complicating English, and such a long post, but I just had to have it done tonight itself. No thanks to Jordan for making me make my blog so disgusting with my new pixie christmas background. And Jordan, once and for all, FUCK OFF MY LIFE YOU DIRTY HORNY BASTARD! YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND OF YOUR OWN! RESPECT HER!

=)

No love,
avrril.

All I Want For Christmas Is You. I'm still sane.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas
Is you

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You

All I want for Christmas is you baby!

Love,
Avrril.

Is it today or tonight, we'll know when.

I could kill, if I one day reach the point to where I can't take this anymore. It's not that I want to, but she's killing me everyday. She makes me mad with all the stupid irrelavant things she does! SPM is so close, and I'm complaining about all these. I can't stand it! I want to kill her at times! At most times!

Today she asked me what I want to have for lunch. I asked what else is there left from last night's dinner. She said nothing, but I remember her keeping the chicken in brown gravy! Well, since she said nothing is left then I asked her to fry some noodles. When it was lunch, I ate, she ate. She finished before me, because she slurps everything, not chew. Then she went to feed the monkeys and give them some water. Betty used her hand to scoop some water and drink. Then Betty climbed on her. Therefore Betty left some soil on her arm. And she didn't like it obviously. She didnt take 20 steps to go to the tap and wash her arm, but she took 5 steps to look for my dad's waterlily plants and used the water that contains fishes inside to wash her hand! She didnt take some to splash on her arm, but she took scoops and scoops and scoops! I was horrified!!

I went right to the kitchen door and asked her "u guna air tu untuk cuci tangan?!" and was shocked and answered "tak, ada pasir.."!!! What on earth or hell has that gotta do with my question?! She answers question without thinking or what? I know got the fai hai pasir la, that's why wash, but I asked why use the waterlilies' water?! I dont know if you find her as stupid as I do, or you think I'm just mean. But I'm sick of her crazy shyts! And later on when I asked the same thing but clearly again, she never answered me.

Mann, I could kill her! If I don't, I'll kill myself! This is so frustrating! To make things worse, everytime I'm angry, it affects my skin and I scratch until even a touch of a fingertip can hurt.

One night after dinner, she was wiping the table and I was in the kitchen walking to where she was. I saw her holding the table cloth on one hand and both hands up like she's thinking about flying. And then I jokingly said " u giler ke..? mo terbang?!" and TO MY HORROR, she started shaking her head like she a rock star rocking the concert with her hair all over her face! I dont know what you think, but I think she's only three quarter cooked. Sorry, I've been talking about my maid, incase you couldn't figure out.

I shouldn't be saying this here, but this is my only outlet right now as spm is this close. Not only SPM, all the finals, the competitions, the everyday work.

I could die die die. Not that I want to. I just wish for SPM to be over as soon as possible! I need to get out of this rut!

They make my life in my schooling days.

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Love,
Avrril.

Not here to say I'm sorry, not here to lie to you. But I've made up my mind.

I was going to talk about what's currently depressing me, but something made me click on 2 comments I've not moderated for so long, even after I've read it. Of course, I deleted it.

But those two comments made me change my mind. I'm depressed because of someone, who's leaving. Not only because he's leaving, but ti's because I really really like him. This comment that I just read told me that once someone knows how I feel for 'em, and no good comes my way, it's time to let go and move on. It's true, but someone as silly as me would still hold on. I'd always like to get a clear answer, not just a picture, but the answer. Ofcourse, through all the quarrels I've had, it's obvious I had to move on. Actually, it's not that I don't know I have to let go.

It's certain things that I take into account very seriously. A small gesture and I'm taking it as a hint. I talk to my friends and they say it's just flirtings. I don't understand. And I still don't.

I was truly crushed when I read that you're leaving. I still am. I just felt so numb inside. I felt so much like texting you today, but I realised that I shouldn't. You did give me an answer though it was indirect. And you told me not to be sad. Well, who wouldn't be anyway.

I don't know my point for posting this today, I don't have a point. I guess I was just having high hopes on you. I never learnt my lesson, I have always put high hopes, even though my jie and my mongchacha tells me not too all the time. Someone has to scold me I guess. Anyways, this is what you get when you come to your create-post page without a thought, nothing.

Oh, before I go, matters that arise stated in the previous post are settled. =)

Listening to: Shayne Ward - That's My Goal
Feeling: Torn and numb. Stone-ish. Tired.

Owh, know what, Jinny screwed up with Mlia and they're fine now. I screwed up with one good friend of mine, we're still not fine, cause she started ignoring me about 40minutes ago. Jinny had tried to call Mlia so many times but she didnt answer his calls. I somewhat lost my phone/left it in the salon, and I ransacked my room for any old books which contains her number, and found none. I looked for friends online who knows her and have her number. No one online did. They all have phones to sms her for me though, but I don't have her number in my head[but now I do].

[okay, no more 'Jinny and Mlia', I just did it for fugs.]
I changed my msn nickname just incase she was online but had blocked me, so I asked her to stay online! I'm guessing it didnt work that way. Then I typed her an email. Explaining what I meant to say, and that I had no bad intentions. And of course, that I am very very very truly sorry from my heart, and if I lied that I had no bad intentions, I swore upon my heart that lightning would strike me. I wouldnt swear such things, my dear good friend, what more with lightning! I can't even sleep with thunder!

Girl, I'm really sorry, and I'm not going to type my explanations here, I've sent you an email. Our friend is right now being middle man, helping me to text you and all, I'm sorry I cant do it by myself, because I left my phone, god knows where. I'm being such a wuss right now, my heartbeat's racing against each other.

And at times like this, we always do need someone to calm us down and tell us everything would be okay, and anyhow comfort us, right? Wouldn't you? Well, thankfully I have Shi Ching to text my good friend for me, and she even came online again to tell me what my friend replied[well, even if you didn't, Shi Ching, thank you.]At times like this, when you feel horrible, you feel like such a piece of dung, you start looking for someone. And your last resort would probably be your diary, which doesn't answer you. Sometimes, most of the times, it's best to go straight to your diary. It's good if you have someone to spill them to, so that they can answer you and comfort you. But it's much better to not get an answer but you could still spill, and you don't get ignorant messages.

Sometimes we just want a tad bit of attention at times when we're down, sad, worried, fugged-tub, scroodup, feelin like a shithead, or just unhappy.And how to we try to get the attention, we act/be a wuss. Some do the manja thing. Some talk suicide. Some just want to stand on the chair that swivels, and then fall backwards. And we'd always hope for nice words like, "aww, don't.. if you do, who would I have?", "it's not worth", you know, nice words! And when we are in such moods, such sensitive moods, we happen to ask "do you miss me?" or "how much do you sayang me?", we'd normally hope for "of course I miss you" or "okla okla, miss you la.." or "I sayang, a lot.....". But we'd feel like standing on the chair and falling backwards, so much, if we get an answer like "uhm, I dunno?".

I'm not giving lesson on how to handle people who enjoy or is being a wuss at most times, for small issues. I'm just expressing what a wuss I am, and how I thought I'd be treated. I guess I think too far, I hope too high, it's all too much that I'm asking for.

This being a wuss part of this post is not about my misunderstanding with my good friend. I'm not here for sympathy cause I think I lost my phone. Some people think that this is such a wrong time to worry about all this shyt, like whether he/she's mad at me, whether I just had a misunderstanding with my friend, whether I'm currently mad at my date or not, whether I should shave my legs or not, whether I left my phone in my great grandma's undies, or in the salon, whether I should fall backwards off the chair or not. Talk about the relevant[only] examples I gave, be in such a situation, then you speak. I know SPM is fugging near and around 3 corners, I know I haven't been doing much, I know I dream too much, but can't any of you be nice enough to help me through, or just listen and give some cushion, and then only tell me not to worry too much about this first...? I guess I have to tell people exactly how it feels, then they'd get me. And by then, it's too late.

Yea, I think I'll decide to fall backwards off the swivelling chair. Then get a scissors stabbed into this body. and then say "Have a Fucking Good Night!".

The Notebook - With every great love, comes a great story.

I watched this show called The Notebook today, on Star Movies. It was about an old man, reading a story to another old lady. This old lady has this disease where she can forget everything including herself at any moment, and later on she'd remember again.

The story this old man is reading to this lady is actually about her past, when she was in love with a guy. Her name was Allie, and the guy's name was Noah. She was a rich affordable girl, has blonde hair and that sophisticated look. She went to Noah's village for summer. They fell in love and all. One day when she was out late with Noah, he brought her to a pretty pretty but abandoned house. They were getting on to sex in that empty house, which Noah had a dream of rebuilding it and making it his. Allie was panting tremendously, it was her first time. She kept talking and asking Noah what was on his mind. She realised she was talking too much and she said she'd shut up. But she went on. She asked him how come he was so quiet. He was turned off there, and then she said she's sorry because she wanted to make her first time something to remember. LOL. She's so cute! And they continued talking and suddenly a friend of Noah's budged into the house and said that Allie has to go home. Her parents had sent some cops out to look for her as she wasn't when it was already 2am.

She went home with the guy and her mum scolded her and disallowed her from seeing Noah again. She went to talk to Noah, and they argued. She yelled at him to leave, and then she said she didn't mean it and all. She was so messed up. The next morning, her mother said that they'd better leave, and go back to New York. Before she left, she went to look for Noah. But he went to work. Then she told Noah's friend to tell him she loves him.

She went to further her studies, and meanwhile met a guy, a rich one. Noah joined the military force. He wrote letters to Allie ever since she left for 365 days but had no reply. Her mum kept them away from her. The guy Allie met had proposed to her. When Noah came back after many years, his father had sold their old house so that Noah can buy his dream house. When one day Noah went to the city to get his house plan approved, he spotted Allie. He tried to catch up on her, and eventually he saw her, in a restaurant, kissing her fiance just like how she kissed Noah before. He was crushed. Soon after that, his father had passed away and he was alone with the house. He rebuilt it beautifully, just the way he had promised Allie it would be.

Many people had offered all types of amounts to buy the house, but he kept looking for reasons to keep the house. One day when Allie was trying out her bridal gown, her mum and her friends we getting excited from reading in the papers that some big man in town would be attending her wedding, and that is would a really grand wedding. When they opened up the papers to read more, there appeared Noah's picture and the pretty house he built. Allie fainted on the spot.

Allie went to tell her fiance that she wants to take a break and she wanted a vacation. She drove herself to Seabrook. She saw the house. He saw her. She stumbled and almost left without stepping into the house, but eventually she went in. They talked, they had tea, they had dinner, and she promised to come back the next morning. Noah took her on a boatride. Then it rained later on and they were soaked. Allie suddenly shouted at him, "how come you never wrote?!" and then Noah said "I wrote to you for a year!!" Their petty arguement went on and they kissed just like the way they'd make up for any complications. And they had sex. She woke up with flowers next to her and a note saying Noah had went to get breakfast. He told her to follow the arrows for a surprise. She ran along the arrows with a blanket wrapped around her. The arrows had lead her to what Noah promised her. She was in a painting room over-looking the lake and sunset.

A sudden knock on the main door downstairs. She ran down in her blanket, opened the door. It was her mum. She questioned her mum about the 365 letters. They talked a bit. Then her mum took her for a ride. Her mum showed her that her mum actually was in the same situation as her. She was in love with a man just like Noah many years back before she met Allie's father. She sent Allie back to Noah's house, and before Allie left, she finally gave her the letters. Noah was back in his house. And then they talked again. But it ended up in an argument because Allie was undecided. Noah said "You leave me, and then you have sex with me and you want to go and get married?!" Before she left he asked her, "Don't think about what others want! What do you want?!!!" and she only had to say "I have to go..!" He was crushed again. She went to her hotel, and talked to her fiance who had already went to look for her.

He said nicely, "So right now, I have three choices. First, I'll shoot him down. Second, I'll get him whacked. Third, I'll leave you. But none of it is gonna allow me to have you.." They both said "I love you."

And according to the old man's way of telling the story to the old lady who's forgotten about her past, he said "..and they lived happily ever after." Old lady Allie asked.."who??" and then kept silent for awhile. And then she said "Oh, yes..! Noah, I love you!!!"

So Allie had finally remembered who this old man was. The book he read the story from, was Allie's notebook. The danced in the room and kissed and hugged. And suddenly Allie backed off. "Who are you?! What are you doing?! Where am I?! Stay away!!! Help!!" and Noah tried to calm her down. Soon enough the nurses and the doctor came[they lived in a medical home] and gave Allie a relaxant jab. Noah cried. His world seemed turned-over. He tried so hard to revive her memories and she forgot all over. He cried really hard. The next day, the nurses found no pulse in him. They rushed him to emergency. And then he was soon stabilized.

He went to see Allie in her room. She woke up and saw him. He held her hands. And they talked and loved. He lied on the bed next to her and wished each other 'goodnight'.

And that's the love story I watched today. Not exactly the same at the start, cause I didn't watch from the start. But storyline's about the same. It was starred by Rachel McAdams and Ryan Gosling. I fell in love with Ryan too. He's so cute! Go watch the trailer that from the link below. This story had a really good meaning behind it. I suggest you should strive your way to go watch it one day. I'm gonna get the book,which is by Nicholas Sparks, or maybe some sweetie pie can be sweet and get it for me? Okay, cut the shyt out. Working again tomorrow.





The Notebook's official website
The movie review
Goodnight! =)