Dope - Unwritten

I am the happiest girl tonight!!! Pine nuts, salad, and one great email! More to come! I need to jump now! It's the adrenaline! See ya all!

J.Lo, Oxcyde, Uracca.

Yes, a new background. It's not some dirty photo okay. It's just sexiness. Yes. And I find her bum bum very J.Lo...

Anyways, I'm not crazy over Oxcyde kay. His songs are great, he's a nice guy, he's my friend, and nothing more. Well atleast it is this way for now. *turns away and smile* He's performing in Noise Bar, The Railway Hotel this Thursday. Aussie readers go catch the gig. It's $5 per entry. Why on earth am I even saying this here; I don't think I have Aussie readers!

'Cause I support Oxcyde/Assentrix/Level Headed!!! And I would go and watch if my sister wasn't coming back tomorrow night! [and also if SPM was already over la..=p]

Yay, our national cyclist is going to transit in KLIA tomorrow night, landing 8.30pm! And taking of to Doha, Qatar the next morning! Malaysia are you proud of all our national athletes? Well atleast I'm proud of my sister! For your information, how many bloody times I've told her to check out my blog and she never does. cipek. Ahahahaha! Please pray for her success!

I'm going off now. And I can't wait for tomorrow night. Especially because I'm gonna wear my new shoes! It's so eff-ing pretty!!! Okay okay, I'll stop it now.

One nice picture for all of ya. I love photoshop and paint. =)



Goodnight all! xoxo!

Yet another survey. Easiest way to update.

What's your favorite scary movie?: Scary movie! =)
What's your favorite movie: My Best Friend's Wedding, Drive Me Crazy, The Notebook
Who is your favorite actor:Owen Wilson [he's so not gay okay!]
Who is your favorite actress:Julia Roberts
Where were you born: Taman Megah
Where do you live now: Petaling Jaya
Who is your best friend: You know who you are.
Are you in a relationship: nope
If so are you in Love: =)no
Do you plan on marrying them: even if I were, that's something to talk about later on.
Do you play video games:nope
If so what kind:-
Whats your favorite kind of clothes: vintage and casual
What's your favorite band: I know my one and only favourite rap singer is Oxcyde.
Who is your favorite film Director:uhhh... no specific. Okay, maybe Bradley! =)
Are you a virgin: yes
Do you consider yourself good looking: good enough for me not to complain but be thankful.
Do you consider yourself weird: sometimes. But I like it.
Who is your favorite painter:every 3 year old kid who paints.
whats your favorite comic book: Archie?
what is your favorite video game:none.
If you could have any super power what would it be: to be invisible
If you could be one super hero who would you be: Donald Duck!!!
What type of music do you like:whatever that sounds good.
Aim or yahoo: msn. =)
Turkey or ham: turkey ham!
What is your favorite food:italian! and salad!!
Taco bell or McDonalds: no Taco Bell in m'sia so McD's it is..
Favorite memory: every sweet one.
Shower or bath: shower.
Where do you work:no where yet.
What is your favorite cartoon: Disney
Who do you wanna kill more of clowns or democrats: why clowns?! Democrats!
Beer or wine: Wine
Do you play any sports: used to.
whats your favorite song: reminisce the start
Wats your dream car: the mini cooper.
coke or rootbeer: rootbeer
Werewolves or Vampires: vampires are sexier...
Who knows you more than anyone:me myself.
Whats your favorite color: green, white, red. [italy]
What color are your eyes: dark brown
If you could have one wish what would it be: score me a high credit for History!
Have any piercings: 2
Are you getting any:1 on my belly button
Do you have any tattoos: no
Are you getting any:never
Whats your favorite holiday: I'd love to go somewhere by the beach, stay in a chalet, listen to the waves in the night.. hmm...
Do you have any kids:aiyor, not even married la.
Are you lazy: hehe, yes
Shy or out in the open:with new people shy. And if I know you well enough, I'm one of the craziests,
who is the one person you would do anything for:my family.

Uhm, readers, if you've got any question to ask me, to know more about me, leave a message on the tagboard. I'll get back to you if your question is relevant. I love answering surveys, and questions like these! Feel free! =D See yas!

Kick up the sundance shoes!

Q : What is your status?
A : single, flirting and looking. ;)

Q : What were you doing 5 minutes ago?
A : trying on my new top. It's pretty. =)

Q : What are your fave sports?
A : [hahaha.. asking this pig here?]If running is a sport then running. Swimming's good too. Some time of 'play water' includes. hee!

Q : Do you cry most of the time you have problems?
A : if it's servere then yes. [haha, then you donkeys would say that all my problems are servere... =.=]

Q : Did you have a fight with sum1 today?
A : no. But a small boy got me mad today! I was digging into clothes searching for pretty tops and stuff. This indian lil boy came around next to his mother. She was sorta next to me about 3 feet away. Actually, it should be 'I though he was coming around next to his mother' ... anyways, he didnt. He came towards me, and TOUCHED MY RIGHT THIGH!!! I had a short denim skirt on you see. God knows what made him do that. I felt disgusted. He touched my thigh and sniggered and backed off to his mother and SMILE AT ME. Gee, it's funny yet not very too.

Q : What are your fave subjects?
A: english. economics.

Q : Who cheers you up the most in your life?
A : my family. then comes my friends.[not all though.. =)]

Q : Do u like to chat?
A : yea, but not with everyone. I'm fussy with friends sometimes. Sorry.

Q : Last chat?
A : Patrick.

Q : Do you like to laugh?
A : If I say 'no' and you say 'oh.. okay..', you gotta know me better.


Q : Last text message from? What's about?
A : my kakak from indon. Message contents:private

Q : Last food?
A : hard boiled egg

Q : Do you have an exam?
A : YES!!

Q : Do you think people who like to study are alot like nerds?
A : nope. If they like to study a lot, but when they cross the road they take 10 minutes, when they play football they are shy to take off their shirts, whether it's time for exams or not they don't give a damn about you but their books are like gold. That's a nerd. hmm, gold from my nostrils la..

Q : What's your opinion about long distance relationship?
A : difficult. Needs a lotta trust. Therefore you gotta know him/her for a long time first.

Q : About love at the first sight?
A : don't know. Some works, some doesnt.

Q : Did you ever love sumone but he/she didnt like you?
A : yea, there were ten thousands of them.

Q : Did you ever dump sumone?
A : yea, not in regrets though.

Q : Have you ever taken a relationship with sumone you didn't love?
A : I must've...

Q : Have you ever hurt sumone who you love so much?
A: yes, but I dunno how much he loved me lor...

Q : Do you like your school?
A : so so la..

Q : Do you have a new bestfriend?
A : How new would 'new' be? Dont know, maybe.

Q : Do you have sumthing you must do right now?
A : SLEEP! Well, right now I gotta STRIP[haha] and change into my pyjamas. Then get my sleep. =)


God knows why I keep posting surveys in my blog as a post. Shyt, this is so pathetic. Neways, goodnight. I love today a lot. My dress is so pretty! and so are my Clarks! Bye!

xoxo

videos just for the sake of it.

3 times, I have wanted to post another survey from Friendster, but as I type my post, I surf the net. And due to what a nutcase my comp and IE is, it shut my IE windows by itself and everything I typed is gone. How @$%&%-ing...

Too bad, I'm not posting that survey anymore... Instead, I'm gonna share with you some nice videos.

This is Ming Hee dancing in Cameron Highlands, at our training 'camp'.
I don't think you'd 'want him that way'...


This are 3 athletes from my school,also during training camp. Hakuna Matata all the way from SMK Taman SEA.


Here's something I'd talk about. I don't understand some people who join reality contest shows. They know they just cannot sing well,they insist they can. They sing like they're so confident. When judges reject them they say the judges are blind or stupid and this and that. Get a mirror. Here's something I recorded from tv with my cam. So, excuse the colours and background noises/voices.

This guy sings "Bad Boy" Chinatown style. No offense dude, but did you really think that your singing is good? Did you really think you deserved the 1 million dollar? Enjoy!



I have people pestering me to have my dinner now and it's very very irritating to get that even after you've said "coming..!!!". So, BYE! =.="

Get to know me. =)

To know a little more information about me, here's some. Done with the help of 2 surveys.

From Melanie's blog...

10 years ago i was:
-7 years old
-skinny
-much shorter
-very eager to touch ground in europe for the first time
-still a kuci rat, small skinny and quite.

5 years ago i was:
-12years old
-in the year where I took UPSR
-much fatter than when I was 7.
-not a kuci rat anymore.
-quite a tai ka jie

5 most recent songs i listened to:
-Oxcyde - Therapeutic
-Oxcyde - Reminisce the Start
-Oxcyde - Cool as ice
-Sarah McLachlan - When She Loved Me
-MCR - Black Parade

5 songs i know all the words too:
-Negaraku
-Duli Yang Maha Mulia
-twinkle twinkle little star
-Charlene - I've never been to me
-fug, I can't think okay!

5 places i want to run to:
-bed, I need the sleep, hehe, yet i'm here.
-Aussie!
-Krabi?
-Paris
-YOUR BEDROOM! ngehehehe....=) ...sleepy la..

5 things i really want:
- pass my spm with swimming colours...
-a new cellphone
-scholarship
- nicer skin
- a higher nose bridge. my god, I'm pathetic.

5 things i should be doing now:
-studying science
-studying science
-studying science
-or atleast sleep
-and sleep longer..

5 biggest joys in my life:
-when I was born..cos I was given a chance to live.
-when I found out that THEY were my parents
-when I found out I have an elder sister.. but at first it was really horrifying.
-when I got 5As for upsr and daddy bought me schnauzy
-I'm happy with the love I get from my family.. I should be...

From Kah Yang's blog...

Layer ONE : On the Outside
Name : Leow Hoay Lin @ Avril
Birth Date : 1st April 1989
Current Status : Single and looking.
Eye color : brown
Hair Color: dark brown
Righty or Lefty : Righty
Zodiac Sign : Aries

Layer TWO : On the inside
Your Heritage: Chinois
Your Fears : Insects like roaches and bugs, reptiles like the stupid geckos in my room!
Your Weakness : sweet talk, and food
Your Perfect Pizza : Not a big fan of pizzas

Layer THREE : Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : That was so fast!
Your Bedtime : 12am, sometimes 4 am?
Your most missed memory : Form2, memories made with my grandma, Pickle and my kakak.

Layer FOUR : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : neither
McDonald's or Burger King: both
Single or group dates: single dates
Adidas or Nike: any
Lipton tea or Nestea: lipton
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate ice-cream, vanilla scent.
Cappuccino or coffee: coffee

Layer FIVE : Do you
Smoke : Never will
Curse : yea, though I don't like to.
Take a shower : No, I dont. I enjoy the odour I have on myself, especially from my armpits. Why take a shower for? You'll get dirty again anyway. FER GAWD'S SAKE, OFCOURSE I DO!
Have a crush : I'd say not.
Think you've been in love : Yea, think only.. and found I was wrong.
Go to school : soon 'not anymore'.
Want to get married : Someday.
Believe in yourself : Not always. I never make right choices and always say the wrong things.
Think you're a health freak : Hope to be. But looking at my growing size, I'm definately not.

Layer SIX : In the Past Month
Drank alcohol: no
Gone to the mall: NO
Been on stage: no
Eaten sushi: no
Dyed your hair: no (aiyor, I seem REALLY pathetic now..)

Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game: nahh...
Changed who you were to fit in: I guess so. I didnt choose to change, it's like I naturally did.

Layer EIGHT
Age you're hoping to be married : before 30

Layer NINE: In a Girl/Guy.
Best eye colour: any
Best hair colour: any
Short or long hair: any. But it applies with the person he is too.

Layer TEN: What Were You Doing.
1 minute ago: typing this
1 hour ago: in the shower.
4.5 hours ago: taking my exam, cracking my brain.
1 month ago: trying my very best to study
1 year ago: came back from cameron highlands training, earlier than the others. I was.. lazing at home.

Layer ELEVEN : Finish The Sentence
I love: my family
I feel: sleepy
I hate: exams
I hide: my feelings to a certain extend
I miss: my grandma, my dog and kakak.
I need: to go out and celebrate, but that's about to come in about 2 weeks time. Patience is a virtue!

Layer TWELVE : Tag 5 people
whoever who reads this. haha!

Therapeutic.

I would be the craziest student to be blogging at this time of my life. It's modern maths paper tomorrow. I'm just here to express how glad I am that Sejarah is done and done. I might not do as well as other students, especially ones in the Science stream, but I did my best so far. I'm proud of myself even though I do not know my results yet. History has been the toughest subject for me ever since I was introduced to it. I have never scored well in it. I have never done well in it. When you do not do well in something, it makes you not want to do it even more. For some people it might be the other way round, but for me, that's just how it goes. What I'm saying is that I have never really studied Sejarah for any exam, not really even for SPM. If you do not study anything at all, it's gonna be really difficult to do your exam. I did last minute studying. I know I regret because I could have done better. But now that it is the past, I decide to be happy that I have atleast finished an essay question with confidence and not reffering like I do when I practise. This exam period has caused me a long-term itch and it is easily agitated by stress, anger, frustration, or simply hurt by words. Yesterday, after my BM paper, I told my dad my fingers hurt from writting. He said because I never do enough work. Thanks. My fingers were feeling a slight pain when I touched the tip of it, because I have small handwritting and I was adjusting to the position of holding the pen higher so that my handwritting would not be so difficult for the invidgilator to read, so that he/she would not be turned off by my handwritting and give me a cute chicken egg which could similarly look like this --->0 . Today someone told me something that got me right in the face. And I felt like the stupidest person living today. I was talking about how happy I am with what I did for my History paper, but 'someone' told me that 'someone' didn't know doing history needs reffering. Thank you is all I can say, because you're smart and I am stupid because I have to refer when I do history. Friend, I hope your prom date would not be affected with eczema during prom in her pretty dress with her not-so-pretty self scratching like an asshole. I hope.

Mod. maths tomorrow morning. Gotta run.

Listening to: Oxcyde - Therapeutic

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia

That's just what SPM stands for, we all know. For those of you who've not started sitting for any papers, I have. I took the accounts paper. It was tough shyt.

No, the paper wasn't THAT tough, but the situation and the aura you feel in the class/hall is so tensed and tight! I woke up that morning, had a cup of coffee, with my accounts notes. As I sat by the dining table, I felt like throwing up. I finished my coffee. Then I took my notes upstairs. I left them on my bed, then I went to take a nice shower. I felt much better. Infact I was confident. I was dancing in my room. I was only wearing my chamisole and my sarung, LOL, and enjoying every moment. Then I went downstairs and made my own lunch. As I was eating my sandwich, I got that sick feeling again. I quickly finished my sandwich[I know it would have made me worse] and drank some water. I went to wash my face, sat on the couch and read up some more notes.

At about 12.30pm, I left the house, waited for my little but big bus to come. I was also feeling that tinge of nervous in me. When I reached school, my body felt weak.

When the paper started, I couldn't believe it's real. After the paper, I felt worse. I told my friends jokingly that I'm gonna jump down a river that night. And they asked why. Wasn't it obvious? Well, that means they felt fine. So, prolly I'm not doing too well for accounts eh? It rained. And some nice friend allowed himself into a friends car, and watch me walk in the rain. By the way, my friend sorta lives around my block. Thanks friend. -.-"

I'm not ready for the next papers. Not at all. So, goodnight. I hope everyone enjoyed the previous post of mine. It was a great hit! =) See ya all! Good luck SPM candidates! I know, I'm late, no one's gonna come online and read this. Ciao!

If you just wanna make my life miserable, go to Hell and wait.

I HAVE DIRTY BASTARDS COMING TO MY BLOG WITH FUCKING DIRTY MINDS THINKING THAT THIS PHOTO I POSTED ON MY SHOULDER WITH A SCAR FROM MY PET MONKEY, IS AN UPCLOSED SHOT OF MY BREAST. IF ANY FOOLS HAVE READ THE WRITTEN, IT'S PROVEN IT'S MY SHOULDER(in blog post dated 23rd October). AND BESIDES, YOU FUCKING STUPID BLIND BASTARDS OR BITCHES, I HOPE YOU DONT HAVE A COLLAR BONE SLANTING DOWN TOWARDS YOUR TITS!

If that was one side of my breast, you telling me I'm nipless? I take it as an insult. First off, how did I find out that there are sickos reading my blog and thinking my shoulder is my breast?
My ex-boyfriend[ashamingly], Jordan Lo Jo Zheng, IM me on MSN like this..
J:hey
A:hie..
J:*nudge*
A:???
A:yes??
J:wats up with ur blog?
J:showing off you breast izit?
A:my blog?
A:uhm.. are you at the right page?
J:yup.
J:i think so..
A:but I've changed my layout(i started to think that it could be the hyper photo, but..)
A:and I've never showed any breasts
J:recently?
J:70% than
(omg, he can't even differentiate 'than' and 'then')
A:not even 70percent
A:I wear clothes for all my pictures
J:wit da scar on it?
A:??adoi... my post issit??
A:where got breast?!
A:CRAZY!
A:my shoulder got la?!
J:do u noe everyone been talking abt it...
A:WHO?!
J:nvm lar..u better close it..than becoming a bitch than
J:i mean ppl calling
A:WHO TALK ABT IT?
J:many one....
A:NAME!!!!
J:u lo lei sui one...
A:HUH?
J:izit a love bite that u r showing?
A:if you'd just read the post?! and not stare at something you think isnt it?
A:and gave(error of anger:can) you for god's sakes give me names of who thought so?
J:ppl send it to me... just to look at da pic....
J:u think i so free mehh.....
A:WHO SEND?!
J:jus advising u..
J:i also 4get d... few larr...
A:WHO FUGGIN SENT YOU THE PICTURE?!
A:DON'T FUGGIN LIE OKAY!?
J:u really think i so free arr....
A:THEN JUST TELL ME!
A:cos I think you're pretty silly to be one of them to think that way too!
J:i also think da whatever picture u showing is mainoly for attention lorr....
A:you don't think i have a bone so obvious right above my breast?!
J:so....just telling u lorr..if u dun think so thn 4get it lorr
A:OWH, IF THAT'S WHAT YOU THINK, SORRY, YOU'RE JUST SO DUMB TO THINK SO!
J:alright..everyone dumb than
A:everyone? well, no one has ever said anything about it..
A:and besides, in my blog, it says my shoulder!
J:alright alright...
J:haha...
J:anything larr..
A:I DONT FIND IT FUNNY OKAY!
A:ANYTHING DOESNT DO IT FOR ME
A:you dont judge something without reading okay
A:tell your stupid friends who sent you the photo to go to hell!
J:is not funny is not funny......
(it's getting very very ashaming that my ex boyfriend types like this, my gosh..!)
J:dun worry dun worry....
J:i worry ur mum see it only
A:YOU'RE A FUCKING BASTARD AND GO TO HELL, MY MUM SAW MY SHOULDER YOU BLOODY BASTARD!
A:YES, DONT EVEN THINK OF REPLYING!
A:I DONT WANNA TALK TO YOU
A:YOU'RE SICK AND BLIND!
J:oh..alright then...yu so angry for if u think is a right thing to do?i am just telling mann...i shall keep qiett than
J:haha....
J:okok
J:u win u win
A:THE FACT IS,YOU HAVE STUPID FRIENDS THINKING THAT IT'S MY BREAST!
A:SO STUPID!
J:hmm....
J:alright....
A:FUCK OFF YOU BASTARD!

and right now, he's not in my MSN list, deleted and blocked! So, dear ex-boyfriend, happy?

See, thanks for that mann, it was my first time telling someone to fuck off and mean it right in the face. And then(or is it 'thAn'?), fellow faithful readers, if you noticed, I had asked him if he was on the right page and he said he thinks so. But I'm sure if he was at my blog, he'd know how I got the scar or which part of me was that picture taken. Maybe he's just plain stupid. I don't know. I'm sorry I had to tell everyone here how shallow you could be. Maybe you're innocent and didn't send my picture around, but if you were a nice ex-boyfriend or friend, even, you could've told me nicely, and not accuse me even after I denied. You could atleast figure out how come I have a bone so obvious right above my thought-as-breast. If you think it was 70% of my breast, I am nipless? Wow, bastard, you're hitting the toll! God made everyone including you with those tits, dumbfuck!

I'm not only bringing this stupid ex-boyfriend of mine down, every sohai who thought it was one side of mine or any girls' breast..... mann, you damn sohai. And my dear readers, those who saved that picture and sent it around, please, BURN IN HELL. You must be too blind to read that it was a shoulder, or you're just desperate for breasts! What a darn pity.

Jordan Jordan the toothbrush, you think my mum thinks it's my breast like you? C'mon, my mum is smarter than that! Again, I take it as an insult! Next, I've never really seen a love bite, but OH MY GOD, you really think that is how a love bite is meant to be? Holy, come to think of it, my monkey Betty loves me, she gave me a love bite!

I'm thinking that Jordan is against me, because if he was a friend, he wouldn't have rubbed the issue in too. If he was being nice to advice me, he would have told me who it was who sent it to him. I'm sure none of you can fall for his fact that he forgot(except those who sent the picture of my shoulder around)? He was just saving his friends. It's not that I have to win or lose, there isn't any win or lose! It's just how shallow these people are! And then I'm also thinking if it could be the horrible fake-zeNNe who did this sending photos of my shoulder around? I'm starting to get more clues on who fake-zeNNe is.. but I'll just have to keep it to myself.

Ever wondered why I broke up with Jordan? He once had his whole palm on my right breast while he was standing and I was sitting. I know, I don't have nice, full-bloomed breasts, and so what's there to touch? Well, ask him! Whether it was by accident or not, it seemed too fake to me. Secondly, he has a horrible habit. If we're walking next to each other around the corridors of the classes, and he sees a friend of his, he pretends to block me from his friend like gesturing "no, this is my girl, you stay away from her" jokingly. When he blocks me, he'd put his hand up in front of my chest level, and it could get really close. I never understood why you did such for. Another thing is, he cannot respect a girl and understand that he shall not kick her ass. Especially even after she says so. Lastly, I'm sorry Jordan, I should've known you longer than 2 days before becoming your girlfriend at that time. I should've known your character, your behaviour, your thinking, your vocabs.

Other than that, he was nice. WAS! I swore I cried when I broke up with him.
But it was all a mistake. Thank God it was 2004 and right now, I'm 17.

Stronger and smarter.

Thanks for reading, I know it's quite a dread reading such complicating English, and such a long post, but I just had to have it done tonight itself. No thanks to Jordan for making me make my blog so disgusting with my new pixie christmas background. And Jordan, once and for all, FUCK OFF MY LIFE YOU DIRTY HORNY BASTARD! YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND OF YOUR OWN! RESPECT HER!

=)

No love,
avrril.

All I Want For Christmas Is You. I'm still sane.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas
Is you

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
You

All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want him for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You

All I want for Christmas is you baby!

Love,
Avrril.

Is it today or tonight, we'll know when.

I could kill, if I one day reach the point to where I can't take this anymore. It's not that I want to, but she's killing me everyday. She makes me mad with all the stupid irrelavant things she does! SPM is so close, and I'm complaining about all these. I can't stand it! I want to kill her at times! At most times!

Today she asked me what I want to have for lunch. I asked what else is there left from last night's dinner. She said nothing, but I remember her keeping the chicken in brown gravy! Well, since she said nothing is left then I asked her to fry some noodles. When it was lunch, I ate, she ate. She finished before me, because she slurps everything, not chew. Then she went to feed the monkeys and give them some water. Betty used her hand to scoop some water and drink. Then Betty climbed on her. Therefore Betty left some soil on her arm. And she didn't like it obviously. She didnt take 20 steps to go to the tap and wash her arm, but she took 5 steps to look for my dad's waterlily plants and used the water that contains fishes inside to wash her hand! She didnt take some to splash on her arm, but she took scoops and scoops and scoops! I was horrified!!

I went right to the kitchen door and asked her "u guna air tu untuk cuci tangan?!" and was shocked and answered "tak, ada pasir.."!!! What on earth or hell has that gotta do with my question?! She answers question without thinking or what? I know got the fai hai pasir la, that's why wash, but I asked why use the waterlilies' water?! I dont know if you find her as stupid as I do, or you think I'm just mean. But I'm sick of her crazy shyts! And later on when I asked the same thing but clearly again, she never answered me.

Mann, I could kill her! If I don't, I'll kill myself! This is so frustrating! To make things worse, everytime I'm angry, it affects my skin and I scratch until even a touch of a fingertip can hurt.

One night after dinner, she was wiping the table and I was in the kitchen walking to where she was. I saw her holding the table cloth on one hand and both hands up like she's thinking about flying. And then I jokingly said " u giler ke..? mo terbang?!" and TO MY HORROR, she started shaking her head like she a rock star rocking the concert with her hair all over her face! I dont know what you think, but I think she's only three quarter cooked. Sorry, I've been talking about my maid, incase you couldn't figure out.

I shouldn't be saying this here, but this is my only outlet right now as spm is this close. Not only SPM, all the finals, the competitions, the everyday work.

I could die die die. Not that I want to. I just wish for SPM to be over as soon as possible! I need to get out of this rut!

They make my life in my schooling days.

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Love,
Avrril.