death

People generally do not like to talk about death. Whenever the subject is brought up, people start to feel uncomfortable. It is especially considered taboo on auspicious occasions such as a birthday or a new year to talk about death. As if mentioning the word "death" can bring bad luck. Of course; I do not agree with such notions.


To me, it's just a superstision. But I think it is a good and wise to relfect often on death even on such occasions. Why? Because we can consider that we are not growing younger. During such reflections we can take stock of our life, reassess our position and see whether we are going in the right direction.


Death is certain, so while we are living, we should do good things and look forward to be a better person. If we accept life we must accept death. Death is part and parcel of life.


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The above is an article I read aloud to my class in form2. I found it when I was clearing up my room. Oh my god, I think I'm a real bummer, cause I've been clearing up my DESK for days and nights... Well, I take breaks in between... and waste time. My desk is almost empty and spacious, and yet my floor is now a mess. Owh, I haven't shown you my dustbin!


I skipped training this evening so that I can finish clearing my desk, but mummy asked me to follow her to the night market. =) Feeling guilty now. *?* An idea of how I'd like my room to be set up just came to my mind! If only my parents would look into what I hope for. I've mentioned so many times about the things I'd need for xpdc, just now when I happened to mention it again, my dad said..." why so late only say??? Now we got no time to go and get...bla bla bla..." The thing is, no one listen to what I say. I haven't even got my jeans that I've longed for ever since god knows when. Everytime I get to go out with my mum, my jie would be there, and of course shopping attention would be given to her. Thank you jie, I love you jie.. =.="
Yea it's sad to know that I don't have jeans huh? That's cause I am growing not by the height, but by the....width? lol... But I doubt I'll lose a single kilogram before xpdc.


*phone call*


Bong bong kokor called. What 'souvenir' to give wor??? I also dunno.. now only tell me..? =S I guess I gotta go dig dig dig out what I can give later. NOw, I won't post up my cleaning progress till it's done, which should be by tmrw! It better be, or I'll never clean it up again! Come to think of it, there were much more things last time, but I had my dear kakak to help me. So I guess I gotta be independant now..yea, and it took me what?- 3nights?! LoL..!

So,from the article above, I now present you "If I die tonight" by Too Phat feat. Liyana.


-Verse 1-
If I die tonight
What would I do
On my last day
I know I'd wake early
In the morn' for crack
Of dawn's last pray
Then prolly go for breakfast
Like I used to do
Fried kuey teow FAM
And roti canai at Raju's
With my boo
And friends from way back
Neighborhood homies
Extended fam
They only know me
As that same cat
With that shaved head
Rocking Cross Colors
Sneaks to school
Writin' rhymes at the back of class
Playing tricks on fools
Then I'd come back to the crib
Tidy up a bit
Y'all know my room's messy
Though classy
Start arrange my ish
Line up my shoes one by one
Start with Jordans
And end with them Air Force Ones
Put a Post-it on the tongue
Of each one
With the name of each dun
I think I know my homies
And who would want which one
Get on the phone
And holla' at everybody
It's nearly noon
Gots to have lunch
With the family
Then spend the last day
I don't know
Try do a million other things
Hoping somehow
Time will slow
I guess what
I'm trying to say is
Take everyday
Like it was your last
Work towards your dreams
Before you pass
And have a blast
While you at it
'Cause we don't know
When we gon'go
So make the best of it
Just keep it real to yourself
And to all people
If y'all lost somebody before
Remember there'll be a sequel


-Chorus (2x)-
If I die tonight
You know it'll be alright
Just smile for me
Reminisce the fond memories


-Verse 2-
Well if I die tonight
I wonder
Where I'll be tomorrow
Nobody cry please
Push away the sorrow
'Cause I ain't been
The best of men
The best of friends
The best of mom
And daddy's last son
The best of anything
Tell Joe here's a last one
If I die tonight
Would I be forgiven
By all the people
I been slackin' with
When I was livin'?
Those who I hurt their hearts
Took advantage of
And even lied to
Hug you one last time
For forgiveness
Yeah I would like to
If I die tonight
Would you feel the loss?
Tomorrow would you dial
My number by accident
Then suddenly... pause?
If I die tonight
I wonder who would get
To keep my caps and shoes
Jerseys, even my little
Stuffed crocodile Coco too
Get my cell phone
Message everyone from A to Z
Tell 'em this ain't Malique
He passed away last night
And pray he rest in peace
If I die tonight
Would you think of my room
When you see blue
Wanted to clean it up this morning
But then I never knew
If I die tonight
What would happen to Tim
How long would it take
Before she kissed another man?...
God damn...
At fast food joints
Would she still order
The same combo meal for two?
Things I wish I knew...


-Verse 3-
A cute lil' thing
To many eyes
To me you were simply
A beautiful thing
I tell no lies
We went from
Mere invisible friends
To pals real tight
Rendezvous up on the net
To chitty chat all night
I used to pick you up
Until you got your own ride
A slammin' two door whip
A grey 36-72
Lookin' all slick
Remember when I asked why this
You said because it's real fast
So you can rush
To see your boy after class
The last time
We met was '01 September
You left feelin' upset over... something
I can't remember...
I never apologized
Till January 10th 2003
When I heard you passed away
When I was deep in my sleep
Your loss taught me
Not to take my friends for granted
Misunderstandings
Gotta slam it quick
Death you never plan it
You're sorely missed down here Wawyn
Rest in peace
This too shall pass
But our true friendship will never cease...
Love...


-Chorus (till end)-