obesity?

so it's a new layout. Fits me almost perfectly. Only thing I dislike about it it that it can't recieve comments. I'm too lazy to findout how to change it. Everything else is fine. I like it this way, if any of you don't then leave this page.

I guess I didn't wanna hold back anymore. I'm not that kinda girl who'd have a lime green jolly looking blog... I've been putting a fake smile, that's all true. Cause it actually hurts in the inside. I've always told myself that life has to go on, and that's why it's all a fake smile. It's like putting on a mask, being covered-up from reality. Although it's almost all out here now, still I HAVE to keep some to myself.

Jie's left for manilla today... Would be back on the 5th, a day before I leave for Sabah and S'wak. Well, then mummy would have just one to worry about. Then soon, jie would also leave for India. =( I AM sad that she'll be gone... I may say I hate her that much, but she's my only sister! How can I not miss her??? I'll be missing a lot back here for 22days. As for jie, sea games is big shyt mann.. Well jie, I know I'm kinda late, and yes you never read my blogs... but I'll always love you as sisters do, and that you'll always have your family behind you all the time. Hope you take care!

Last night, it was my family and my first time to "mama chops papa grills"... Funny name... The waiter is a bit of a joke, or maybe like a doink. The food I had was fine, grilled sirlion steak... mum and dad's weren't too nice according to them, Jie's chicken maryland was... nice....! Servings were okler, not too big neither too small. But their salad was a total turn-off. =s Before we ate, I was staring around the restaurant... Made me feel like I'm in BP station. Then I was like... "ehh... that's azan!" My parents were looking at all the guys around.. then "who's azan?" - "there dat guy there in the picture..." Lol... Azan's picture being blown up as wallpaper in the restaurant. hmmm.... cool...
Then later after dinner, we sent jie back... And that's about it.

As for today, I woke up just before 9am. Even after I brushed my teeth and washed my face I still felt stoney... So I think this stupid mr. lizard decided to wake me up. And I was jumping and freaking out away from it downstairs. I can't imagine, I grabbed a kinder bueno for breakfast. I think that's why I'm not losing a single kilogram! But sometimes I feel like screwing it. Cause it doesn't really matter! Many times, I've thought, "what if I become obesed? how would I look? Would anyone even care??? " Empty thoughts which I'd never get answers to. Well, we'll see... If I put on more weight and start to look like a fat pig when school reopens, then you know what's on my mind.