the nearest thing to heaven, is in the self-sent angel.

I don't know what to blog today. I'm actually currently feeling SUPER mad... Might be a bad time to blog, but I've got no one to spill to, morever there's accounts exam tmrw, slap me?

A funny feeling's coming over me. I seem to care too much I guess. I care too much that I misunderstand the other. It's like "why the F should I give a damn?!" I wish I could be carefree. Cause no one really cares nowadays. They just think they're goddamn right bout everything they say, when it all turns out to offend the other. I truly feel like breaking down now, but the tears just won't come out. I think god's telling me not to cry. My eyes do hurt though.

The feeling when you're hurt in the feelings by the thing, I mean the crap called "love"... It's like it bites your feelings up, it stabs through your heart, it stings your eyes... and yet, there's barely anything you can do to heal yourself. You'd just feel like ending EVERYTHING. Wishing the world would tumble down tonight. Hoping to walk on the streets/road/highway[?] and cross the road just when a lorry hits you. *bamm!* It feels worse when 2 knives stabs into your heart, compared to 1.

No, I don't feel like dying, my reason is I love my family[includes the pets], and friends who've helped me live. I just wanna avoid life, sit in an empty room filled with darkness and silence. I just need a candle, and a bar of chocolate and that empty room to live now. Others are just making things worst!

currently: listening to-->Celine Dion-Miracle[it's all said in the song]
feeling --> the mood I have when i just wanna sit by the breezy
beaches or so...