Life changing decision changes.

Whatever is in the song of Clay Aiken titled Everything I Have, says what I feel right now, this very moment.

I just wished this didn't have to happen. I really don't know you. Who are you, baby? I want to know what's on your mind. Now that we are apart, you seem so different and reserved. And on the other hand, I feel that I want to share everything from my past with you, and not hide anything. If there's anything you'd need to know, I'd rather you hear it from me first-hand. What's wrong, baby? Was it your past? Was it me? Was it not meant to happen? Or is it you? Or my past? What, what is wrong??

By the way, I love the fudge. I never really knew what in the world fudge was, always thought it was just an adjective! I never realized my choice of music was so bizarre until I met you. I've never cooked an aubergine until I was given one! I've never been there, until I was with you. I've never said straight in the face to any guy that I like him, until I met you. Yes, there may be a first time for everything, but they mean a lot to me! Because it's not just any first time thing! But sunshine, what do they mean to you?

But you're gone, so far away. It would be crazy to make this decision I want to make. But I want to. To know if we were meant to meet or not. To know the reason we met. To get to know you better. And also so you can know me better. It's quite a lot of kilommetres away if you come to think of it... And 3 hours time difference is really hard to keep up!

I'd go immediately if I have connections. And I will make it happen.

I do, really like you.