The plan.

I've been watching too many DVDs of love and comedy. But at the end of the day, it seems to me they all make pretty much sense.

He's Just Not That Into You, a book I read long time ago. My sister passed it down to me. (Yeah, but we both still wait by the phone..) And then out came the movie itself. Sure was easier to understand. If you have to wait by the phone, it's about time to forget the guy. Well, until he calls you back..

PS. I Love You, taught me that no matter what you've shared with a loved one, if one has to go, they have to go. But it doesn't mean you have to forget all those memories. And only a loved one will let you go just so you'd be happy. So, let go if you love!

All About Steve, an amazingly hilarious movie! I was sitting at Starbucks one evening, waiting for my mom. I was totally laughing myself out in public, no I didn't snort. But it reflects to me, why am I doing the chase? I'm much more worth than needing to stalk. Well I don't stalk anyway, I only browse photos and be mesmerized. Whatever.. At the end of the movie, Mary says that if you have to stalk, you probably weren't meant to.

And so I'm trying my very best right now, to let go and let it come to me.

What people do not get about my decision is that I really want to leave this country. And if I can, of course I'd choose to be closer to him, to get to know him. I admit that I do not know much about him, almost nothing about him. But will I ever get to know more if we've got this distance between us? I'd prefer to get to know a person, in person than by reading things of his past. It would be great if he ever sent me an email though!!

I would love to go away from here. Why? Because I need a new environment. I dislike the situation of this country. I dislike the people here. No gratitude or courtesy, or manners! And it's not that I dislike what's at home too. I cherish everything, and I know I'll be sad when it's all gone. But I cannot move on with life if I choose to stay and be depended on. How long can I stay and be around? How much can I do? And I think it's about time. I have a positivity that I'll make it good there. Just that, why does it have to be so expensive? But yes, I'll make it through. Life shall change when I'm gone.

God, I hope you're guiding me through all these. I can't do this alone.

And to those reading, I'm hoping, to get a job at Club Med, until prior to July which is when I'd like to start classes in Melbourne. The him I speak of, is an amazing guy I met here in KL. I hope your plans work out well too, whatever they may be.