Filling up the empty!

It's been long since I've posted nething too meaningful. I don't know if this one would make a difference. [Okay, not that long, but...] The past days, weeks, things have been happening, and I've been having thought in my mind on what lines I'd like to fit into my next post, and yet I haven't had any of them here.

To start off, 11th Sports Day is over, which also points out that I've got no more chances to win any individual medals in sports. And that is because I lost to Michelle Teoh by prolly about 2 to 3 seconds! Argh, it makes me recall how I used to always think that elder ppl are stronger. No one but myself to blame. Just that split second when you're approaching the finishing line thinking "okay, the last medal,my last chance..! can!" and then you feel someone coming nearer, and then overtakes you just that bit, naturally your heart stops a second and then the next thing you know you've lost the hope you had in yourself ever since you signed your name up for the event. And just when you're done with the stupid race, you get off the tracks, and that devil appears on one shoulder with that echoing voice.. "train so late.. where can! hah!".."cannot one la....! hmph.. go la..", then your guardian angel appears on your other shoulder saying "can la! 1500m, 7 and a half rounds only la! Don't worry la..!", and what really runs in your mind?
I shouldn't have taken part.
I should've atleast trained earlier.
I'm such a loser.
Loser.
Loser.
Loser...!!!
You want to cry, but you can't. You stand by the side of the tracks, hoping to be comforted, you have all funny thoughts in your mind, echoing in your head, and the sudden rush of blood into your head, feeling your feet having less balance, suddenly someone comes to you and ask if you're alright. I thank that person, but wouldnt it have been too obvious I wasn't alright as immediately after passing the finishing line, I went off the tracks and never moved except for the part where I was panting hard and felt like tears were gonna roll down my cheek but couldnt.
Anyway, I held the bunga manggar for Rumah Merah like I had always wanted. If I didnt protest somethings, I would've probably held it with a scrony walking twig who denied she really wanted to act as a pretty girl on sports day and insisted it was teacher who forced her in. blargh! I held the bunga manggar with Tzi Ying! She wore a cheongsam with a white shawl and she looked so ancient! So Chinese, and she looked good! I wore a saree. But I don't get what's so nice bout poking my fatty tummy just because it was showing! So if Puan Selvarani wears her saree like she always does, poke her stomach la?!

Next off, the day after sports day, was my grandpa's 80th birthday[and birthday party!] It was quite a biggy party. Mostly family, or so.. I had my own glass of wine, independantly. =) I had mummy's vodka though. Vodka hits you fast, but the taste, not so.. No la, I wasn't drunk la! I just wished I was! Well, being naive, I wanted to know what it's like being drunk mar. Anyway, towards midnight and later, 3 crazy cousins got bored so they danced in the patio enjoying themselves with loud music[when the birthday boy was already sound asleep!], the rest of the party people couldn't be bothered bout us! Well, we were that saddistic and cheapskate..and underaged, we couldnt hit a club. So, we used torch light! omg, so malu come to think of it. LOL!! No la, we were just enjoying la! I woke up the next day with a swelled pair of lips.

The rest of the days in school, have been rather lazy days. Been borrowing books to copy homework, imagine it's happening and we're so close to asspiam! Been quarrelling a lot with Ti Ming, but he's still my ming ming friend! Okla, I know the name ming ming sucks, but it sounds cute mar! Aiyor! Don't get angry la.. ming ming! Well, there was a morning in class when he said "F*CK YOU, AVRIL!",and as usual..."early early morning ade come and say fuck me?" and then I pout.. and he's laughing! That's my good friend I've been sitting with since early this year! He's the one who takes me seat almost every morning just because.."hot la.. I want the fan.. for while la...? "

I was really frustrated with everyone in my class today, well not everyone la.. literally everyone. And I'll call it a bad hair day cum totally annoying day! I miss daddy, he's in Hong Kong with my grandparents. Hmmm... I wonder what's that place like...? Anyway, I'm 20minutes late for Desperate Housewives! I'm not free to upload pictures! And I need my shower before I sleep! I need to read up my literature! I need to finish up the unfinished work! And here I am blogging for you to read what has happened to me! Aiyor...

Now, that actually makes 25mins late! Not 20! Bye!